Still

Watching

Dark coats march

Through my home town

Barking in old tongues

And strangling the red sky

With whipping flags, painted black

Icons of their dreadful rule hang high

A silent taunt to the remaining few....

Skateboards

Speeding around

I love it

Falling and getting up

Scrapes and bruises mean your stronger

I love the pain of it

Skateboarding takes away the pain I feel

The mental pain then becomes the physical pain

The physical pain is better than mental pain

I love the feeling when I fall off my skateboard...

I am struggeling to stick to my good habits continuously

Going to the gym, working out and eating healthy

No alcohol on weekdays and not eating fastfood

Waking up early and working long days

And reading a book per week

So much I wanna do

But don’t get to

I just need

Some more

Discipline...

Weekend

Friday night

Time to relax

Sleeping in til late

Not working for two days

Oh how lovely is that, right?

Just relaxing a bit and doing nothing

It’s nice that every week has a weekend

Saturday and Sunday are two of my favorite days

I wish you a beautiful and relaxed weekend to come...

Lost

Broken

So alone

No help, no hope

Why did he promise

He would never leave me.

But I should have known better

He left me alone and broken

Eleven years of friendship and love

Years gone because he feared the full truth....

hush

today

tomorrow

and yesterday

the movement is slow

anger comes and it goes

hence my days are quite tranquil

my starry nights full of wide eyes

this evening’s soft light, temporary

i love every silent second of it...

All

I feel

is left out.

They don’t really care.

I’m alone, and they’re together.

Group of five, plus one. Wow.

“I have no friends.” “What am I?”

I don’t know, but you’re not a friend.

Friends don’t exclude you because you have social anxiety.

Friends don’t leave you on read; talk to someone else.

Friends.

Friends don’t.

They’re not friends.

“I don’t have friends.”

“Am I just a rock?”

You’re a goo...

Look

At me,

See me soar.

Release your grip,

That you hold on me.

Let me be free, would you?

I will be ok, trust me.

I promise to come back some day.

Please, will you not forget about me?

Do not worry, I will come back someday....

Cheat

Cheating

Making love

To someone new

Infidelity

Has shattered our marriage

And yet you still disparage

My attempts to understand it

Your lack of remorse is a bullet

Lodged into my heart forevermore...

_woah_

eyes wide

heart racing

palms are sweaty

_remember to breathe_

it’s easy to forget

because you’re very pretty

I would love to know you better

to talk to you and to hold your hand

maybe, one day, I hope to kiss you, too...