It’s been a while since we said hello, Last time, you were in a hurry to disappear. Your cuddles weren't so tender, Neither was your presence very pleasant.

You left my white car smeared with dirt, And you stirred up dust. That was so petty of you.

In this season of love, I feel your absence. Everyone’s sharing roses, But I'm here getting rashes.

The sun is so hot, She tries to woo me with her radiant glow, Vitamin D breakfast in bed and sun-kissed photos to show. But her charms can't seduce me, for my heart belongs to you.

Oh sweet rain, come back to me, I'm longing for you.

Here is the thing Do you know just what water brings? Life, hydrate Isn't it great I'll stick with water My one and only date

Comida is Spanish for food, I would’ve thought it meant love.

You’re there when I’m sad, My confident when I’m glad.

Comfort is in your name. At either 1am or 3pm, You’re there just the same.

You smell of sweet and so so salty. Your names taste spicy and tart and fresh baked bread Wrapped around my tongue.

I would see you in the most elegant porcelain dress Or the trashy tin from the shores of Costa Vida, Our relationship is stronger than image.

I’m there whether you’re feeling fatty. Those nights let’s just door dash. Or wether your skin has the healthy sheen of chlorophyll. Ranch fixes everything. Much like duct-tape. Our bond is thicker than broccoli.

If you’re feeling chicken I’ll bring the chick-fil-a sauce.

Let’s not fight. Let’s get Chinese You know my favorite form of your fury is kung fu anyhow.

Mexican is always a classic Even if your tortilla is a little corn-y

American with you is always sweet And got me feelin free.

I guess

What I’m trying to say is,

I comida you,

Food.

Laughter is Yellow, And Anger is Red Love warmth’s the earth Hate begins to fade Not mine, but you. A truth unseen It’s Valentines baby Pick a date and we’ll see. I won’t be a boo, Halloweens already past I can be the first and only thing in your path. Or not, The decision is yours… Becareful of your heart, it’ll eventually unfold. May this Valentine Candy find you when you feel most cold. Maybe warm, just checking… I want to see if you stayed, If you listened?

My best friend is chocolate So sweet and delicious Always there when I’m down So many flavors and colors One for every mood or occasion So chocolate I have one thing to say Thank you and I love you Please always stay

İnci Tanesi

Biliyor musun, sen gittikten sonra
Düzgün bir inci tanesi gibi parlayan hayatım,
İpi kırılan boncuk taneleri gibi sağa sola saçılıp döküldü, dağıldı; toparlayamadım.
Hem gecemdin hem gündüzüm,
Aydınlatan güneşim, parlayan yıldızlarımdın.
Boşluklarda kaydı ayaklarım; umarsızca düştüm,
Ayağa kalkamadım.

Sen yoksun ya,
Pencerelerim demirli,
Kırk kilit takıldı kapılarıma.
Mahpusum, zindandayım, karanlıkta kaybolmaktayım.
Seninle coşkuyla baktığımız ağaç, deniz, kuş,
Böcek ne varsa, güzelliği ile büyülerken,
Şimdi ise görünmeyen renkler içinde avare yaşıyorum,
Lakin araflardayım.

Beni bıraktın ya, herkes bıraktı ellerimi.
Varlığım yoksullaştı;
Camdan heykeller kırılınca menfaatçi yüzler ortaya saçıldı;
Kabullenip inanamadım.

Sen yoksun artık;
Hayatın ıssızlığı ve insanların kahpeliği içimde derin yaralar açarken,
Hainlerin girdabında çırpındım, kurtulamadım.
Artık yoksun, gelmeyeceksin biliyorum;
Tek başına kalmışlığın ızdırabı,
Kaybettiğim anların sancılarıyla,
Kalabalıklar içinde fark edilmeden, sessizce inleyecekl yalnızlığım.

1 Aralık 2024'te yazıldı

Biliyor musun, sen gittikten sonra
Düzgün bir inci tanesi gibi parlayan hayatım,
İpi kırılan boncuk taneleri gibi sağa sola saçılıp döküldü, dağıldı; toparlayamadım.
Hem gecemdin hem gündüzüm,
Aydınlatan güneşim, parlayan yıldızlarımdın.
Boşluklarda kaydı ayaklarım; umarsızca düştüm,
Ayağa kalkamadım.

Sen yoksun ya,
Pencerelerim demirli,
Kırk kilit takıldı kapılarıma.
Mahpusum, zindandayım, karanlıkta kaybolmaktayım.
Seninle coşkuyla baktığımız ağaç, deniz, kuş,
Böcek ne varsa, güzelliği ile büyülerken,
Şimdi ise görünmeyen renkler içinde avare yaşıyorum,
Lakin araflardayım.

Beni bıraktın ya, herkes bıraktı ellerimi.
Varlığım yoksullaştı;
Camdan heykeller kırılınca menfaatçi yüzler ortaya saçıldı;
Kabullenip inanamadım.

Sen yoksun artık;
Hayatın ıssızlığı ve insanların kahpeliği içimde derin yaralar açarken,
Hainlerin girdabında çırpındım, kurtulamadım.
Artık yoksun, gelmeyeceksin biliyorum;
Tek başına kalmışlığın ızdırabı,
Kaybettiğim anların sancılarıyla,
Kalabalıklar içinde fark edilmeden, sessizce inleyecekl yalnızlığım.

1 Aralık 2024'te yazıldı

Scruffy little fawn. Your felt spots dangle by hot glue threads. A dark smudge anoints your brow. What is it? From a chocolate kiss I gave you as a child? When I was alone, and it was dark, and I clutched you close?

Scruffy little fawn. Your body curled and head droopy because the stuffing is sparse. Growing up is hard, but we did. With you in hand, we had the courage to explore. We ran in the sun and through the woods.

Scruffy little fawn, chocolate kissed. Sleeping in a box next to a tiny heart filled snow globe, conversation hearts with simple smily faces and paper cards. Happy Valentine’s Day, my sweet deer.

February 14th, a day blooming with as much love as the rose which sprouts for its petals to end up strewn across a bedroom floor. Hours tick as I struggle to focus on the task- or paper work- that lay upon my desk. The sheet is thin, the words long, and unable to hold my focus. Any day at that, but especially today. Today is the day of love, why celebrate by working? So my mind drifts back to him. The impatience that aches in my heart to be reunited with him, and I’d seen him only hours ago. My eyes drift from the paper before me, I turn to stare out the window instead. I recall this morning, a place in time I’d much rather be, for then we were together. I can remember it now, the softness of my clean sheets, the divided morning light shining through the blinds and striping my skin. I look over, my tired eyes adjusting to him still there next to me. I am content. I lay there, just to admire him, I need not anything else in the world. Just him. Just this. Just my one true love next to me. He is so handsome, the most riches beauty I’ve ever seen, with piercing green eyes and beautiful silky locks. I can’t contain my love, I must channel it into him, so I reach out and carasse his face, running my hands over his hair. We lay just like that for a while, dreading to have to get up. My one and only politely tells me he is hungry, and so I cook breakfast for him. After all, it is Valentine’s Day, and I love him so, and they say the fasted way to man’s heart is through his stomach. I watch him eat from his bowl happily feeling a sense of pride he enjoyed it so. I sigh as I realize I must leave to go to work, kissing him goodbye and telling him I love him a million times over. Work drags, the only thing pushing me through is the thought of him, and the ideas of what we could do on this valentines day night. Eventually, work ends and I’m free to reunite with my soul mate. I tiredly walk into my apartment, my feet hurt, but everything is all right, for I am home. The lights are off and my beloved is nowhere to be seen, worry sets in, creasing my face as I scan the living room. I turn on the lights, searching in each room, no where. I light candles and put on a record to set the mood for his return. I have one finally hope; the bedroom. The bedroom door is closed, and the lack of light peeking under the door doesn’t ease my worry. I approach, the door slowly creaks open, and my heart swells. There he is, in all his perfect glory, my everything , the love of my life, waiting for my, lying on my bed. I hurry to him, immediately embracing him, kissing him on the head. There is no need for an exchange of words, I’m sure he wouldn’t understand anyway, instead it’s understood the bond and the love between us. So we cuddle. And again I’m content, spending my Valentine’s day alone, cuddling my cat.

I melt you. I melt you but you don’t melt me. I love you in a way you can’t understand. Even though the many versions of you confuse me and fascinate me, I still love you. Every version of you.

Because you taste fucking great.