If I’m bi why can’t I just marry a man? 
I don’t just exist in the spaces in-between 
I make the in-between take up space.
My first crushes were an elf with a bow and young Leo. 
I was so sure of my feelings and also not sure at all. 
After all, I was a uniform school girl who loved RENT.
I wanted a boy because I wanted a boy to want me.
Other girls made me nervous, especially the pretty ones. 
The...

I lay in the sun and I can hear the music in my head. The violin, the piano. The music of my future. It swells and I breathe in, feeling the desire for greatness grow in my soul. To be known, is yo be remembered, and my memory will last long after my death. The history books will know my name, will know my songs. I won’t be matched; I will grow and climb and play my way to the top, ambition in han...

"Tell me something about yourself."

What is there to say?

I'm a blank slate.

Paint me the colors you wish me to be.

I'm a ball of clay.

Mold me into the shape you desire.

Give me a purpose, for I don't have one of my own.

Tell me something about myself....

My mother taught me how to

tie my shoes one day,

We were at the park,

the bench cold beneath us—

Winter made itself known, the leaves were brittle, dead.

She said to me, “You’ve fallen

one too many times,”

And as she laced the last shoe, whispered,

“No one will always be there to help you.”

So that was the last day she helped me up,

Dusted off my jeans.

For years, I remembered to tie my shoe...

I h a d a n e p i p h a n y

I realized who I am and why I’m so quiet

I h a d a n e p i p h a n y

I woke up and heard the shouts and the violence

I h a d a n e p i p h a n y

I opened my eyes to see I was a nihilist

I h a d a n e p i p h a n y

I understood why everyone’s lives are like this

I h a d a n e p i p h a n y

But when will the world

Have one too?...

I sit in bed, yet his words won't leave my mind:

"God's not real."

I flip through my bible, desperate to find a passage to distract me.

It's not like I haven't had that thought try to force its way into my mind before.

But as I look to my favorite verses, I realize how contradicting this stupid book is.

How many verses have rules my church ignores.

"God's not real."

But if he's not, what pu...

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I did it again, I overreacted

To something only so small

So small that whatever it was

Is hard to recall

I feel like a horrible person

I don’t know why it made me feel that way

And after all this time

My streak broke today

I can’t tell who I am

I promise I’ve tried

Whether I am me

Or the monster inside

I can’t seem to breathe

The tears covering my face

My ability to ...

What’s my purpose?

Am I meant to work in a circus?

Or am I meant to be worthless?

Do I have A purpose?

I’m in the furnace.

The searing heat is too much to bare.

I’m in despair.

I’m a raven.

I am a horrible creation....

What am I meant to do on this earth?

Am I on the right path?

Will it matter?

Does what I do now matter?

Questions fill my mind

Cloud my thoughts, affect my actions

Can I make it?

Am I good enough?

I hear disbelief

Whispers

About me

Wondering what I am thinking

How I think I can accomplish it

Are they coming from others?

Or from the voices in my head?...

Author’s Note : Life is good right now! I’ve had a rough year, but I’m moving on and am feeling better than I’ve felt in a long time. I hope I didn’t worry you guys, because I got the help that I needed and am thriving! Take care, you guys are the best ☺️

I don’t belong to anyone accept myself,

So how I find happiness,

Is up to no one but me.

I don’t have to prove myself to the people around m...