Alone again in my room

Running a 2k

In a month without training

Parents are disappointed

And second helpings have gone

The doctor says I need to gain

20 pounds, seems a lot

But my parents agree

I’ve agreed but

I just want to lose more

Blacking out

Diet Coke

Physics lab scales

5 years of this

A lifetime to go

Sertraline sickness

Paying off my debt

Propranolol prayers

Reading manuals on recov...

It was made for cleaning.

Cleaning your clothes to be exact.

Put a little on your stained white t-shirt and BAM! The stain is gone. Your t-shirt’s good as new.

“It’s good,” they said.

“Buy some,” they said.

“Keep it in your house,” they said.

“Tell that to my suicidal brother,” I should have said....

(Now I know this says “something” but I’m going to make it “someone” if that even makes sense)

(Still the prompt! Ish… lol 😆)

Meds

Wash it down

Make it go away

Calm down

Put the blade away

My mind screams

I only wanted to help people

In my younger days

I wanted to be a police officer

Or a detective

Playing cops and robbers

I wanted to grow up

to help the world

Funny how that ships a sail

W...

Bang bang bang. The lights were off. All cells closed. We knew the drill. We were on lockdown. I rolled another cigarette and settled in for another night of spades. What else was there. No use getting upset about shit you couldn’t control. And how you handled yourself in here was how you survived in here....

When I opened the door to our cottage, I was relieved to see my little sister has yet to turn into a lifeless corpse. She laid there just as steadily as I left her, under a thin white sheet on her fragile bed, silently fighting for each breath she took.

“I’m back, just like I promised I’d be.” I sat atop the stool beside her bed, and placed her aching hand into my own.

If she had the strength to...

I’m mortified by you

Darling

You made me hurt

And everyone saw

Emotions

I try to keep so

Hidden

From this frosty world

Yet if you said the world

I’d let you

Mortify me over and over again

Until finally you get sick of my beaten and crippled soul

Because Darling

I adore you...

She hid in the closet from a man that wore an apology and hated herself for the tears that fell there.

She sat on the couch with a monster who wore a man and hated herself for trembling there.

She looked upon a friend who became a monster and never looked again.

She sat and hid, she spoke and grinned, but never did she ever look again....

I breathed in the crisp, warm summer air. These nights were the best for clearing your head after a hard day. As she walked she took note of the eerily quiet of the town around her, it was always quiet at night, but this was a different quiet. There were no animals or bugs. Just silence.

I took a few more steps before something fell at my feet. Cautiously, I bent down and picked it up. It appeare...

If I can’t help anyone,

How am I supposed to be cheery?

It makes me feel helpless...

“I thought I was helping.”

“No, you’ve never helped!” he yelled

“I just I thought I was.”

“You can't help, if you're the problem, Karma....