I sit on the bed, alone and free

Ticket in hand, bags by my knees

I smile to myself and think out loud

The adventures I had that made me proud

A long time ago, I had a dream

To visit a world I had never seen

To open my mind to exciting new things

Ready for anything, goose bumps on my skin

And so fast the time passed me by each day

From London, Rome, Paris and Spain

So many memories ...

Looking back at what

could have been is to pine for

star-eyed illusions...

So much pain we have brought

Just to get taught how to fight with

guns An Knives beside handle it like

Grown ups some of us don’t know

Right from left better yet how to spell

So quick to lash out in violence without

Even thinking about what comes

With the Consequence wrapped

Into misery at some degree we have

To take a stand for ourselves and other

Show people that their is a different w...

Oh that I still had

The fire of my fleeting youth

But my moment has come to have passed

I've lost what once was

And I'm alone in this truth

I'm still chasing a ghost fading fast

I'm stuck in this fog

I can see nothing ahead

And behind me lies only the past

As I make way through

I find my courage has fled

Will I find the other side at last?...

Energy leaves your fingers tingling,

Leg bouncing,

Heart pounding.

You never know what tomorrow will bring,

What your future will be,

Or what you believe.

Everything’s different

But it’s still really the same,

Your all the time forgetting everyone’s name!...

Running wind in my hair

Unlimited energy

Never tired

Happy

laughing with friends

You said whatever

Not judged

Cate free

Swimming

Splashing

Smiling

All together

Everyone there

Happy

Your young again

Care free

No responsibility

You can live...

The feeling of youth.

I could bottle it up and sell it for millions.

When I drink from that bottle I’m back to a place I didn’t know how to fully appreciate when I was there.

That garage. That living room where we would collapse on the soft brown couches after taking shots in the kitchen.

The kitchen with holes in the walls from drunken behavior.

The drunken behavior that lead to slow kisses, s...

That gasp

Was a grasp

Of the wisdom you hold dear

You took to the skies

For there are clouds in your eyes

Your soul is much older than you appear

I however am grounded

I stand firm

Independent

I have not wisdom but cunning

The day is always young

For my mind is always running

We are different you and I

You are an old thing

Set in your ways

I am a new toy

I still laugh, try new things, and play

...

The sun is always shining

And when it’s not we play in the rain

The days of fun fly by

Exuberant and joyful

There’s always new things to learn

And new discoveries around every corner

Nothing seems old or forgotten

A shiny new toy on a birthday

A trip to a theme park

Vacations with family

It doesn’t last forever

But it’s blissful when you’ve got It...

after the first breath you take

there will never be a break

your chest will rise and fall

from the minute you’re born to the minute you die

so when you’re laying in your bed at 3am

contemplating on ending it all

remember that you can only make it so far...