In days gone by, forgiveness came so easy, The wounds would heal, the pain would fade, oh so breezy. But now, my dear, the memories remain clear, The broken promises, the trust destroyed, I fear.

Lies have tainted the canvas of our bond, Leaving scars where once love had fondly shone. I'm tired of watching my friend choose others, While disregarding my struggles, my hidden bothers.

Oh, how I long to banish this jaded state, To let go of the anger and resentment, disintegrate. But these thoughts linger, etched in the depths of my mind, Reminding me of the hurt, the pain I've left behind.

Yet, amidst this tumultuous sea of emotions, I strive to find solace, to seek new devotions. For I know within me lies strength and resolve, To rise above the bitterness, to let my heart evolve.

Let not the actions of others define who I am, For I am more than the weight of their selfish scams. Acknowledging my struggles, though they may be unseen, I'll embrace my own journey, discovering what's serene.

Though forgiveness may not come as easily today, I'll strive to release the resentment, the dismay. For in the depths of my soul, there lies a choice, To transcend the hurt and give my heart a voice.

So, I'll carry on, embracing life's twists and turns, Finding joy in the lessons that each hardship churns. And one day, my dear, I'll find peace within my strife, Where forgiveness and forgetting intertwine, giving me new life.

It used to be much easier to forgive than to forget But now l would rather forget it ever happened at all I'm fed up of the flash backs and panic attacks I never wanted you near me

You changed my life But not for the better So no I don't forgive you When l have forgotten you exist at all

I remember a time When the wind blew through my hair And the sun smiled down on me I know that I can never go back To laughter Ice cream Swings Never go back To that curly haired girl With the cheeky smile But I remember her I remember her laugh And babble I remember her I know that I can never take back Slammed doors Suppressed sobs Cuts on my wrist Never take back The hurt I’ve seen But I remember before Before I watched my future fade Made up husband replaced with wife And the resentment I had for that I remember her I remember her future Husband and kids A smile fixed on my face Autumn leaves drift in Victorian streets And there’s our house The one he grew up in And I leaned over and kissed his lips And it felt so good To have such clear thoughts Haven’t felt that for a while But I remember it I can feel us colliding Remembering it all Her hopes and fears Her tears and laughter I remember it all But then I see mine Blood and screams Spinning out of control And much as I’d like to go back To her She was that sweet ice cream Melting in the sun Innocence taken By the sunshine of life And the rain Oh I remember her But She’s not here anymore I am But I am not just regrets I am pieces of paper With poetry littering the margins A flag blowing in the wind Showing my love Music with a bobbing head The ghost of a smile Tracing my face Her ghost Oh I remember those as well All those things I am and I’ve lost Oh I remember it I’ve hated I’ve loved But I’m coming out of my memories Out of the closet Out of the shadow of shame I remember But one day I’ll forget

Time eases all hurt, joy, victory, and defeat; so we can move on

So, pray for me lover, and I promise I will haunt you. For I am eloquently full of anguished truth.

And though honesty is not the color of your eyes. I will still drown in them, carrying your heavy sighs. For I am a blasphemous girl and full of rage. Splitting my tongue in a religious twain. For the sins and sorrows of a love turned to disdain...

But I will not drink the blood of a man. I will not drive more pain, into my broken hands. Just let me slip away from my skin. I will be the creep; you forget in the end...

So, pray for me lover, and I will disappear with grace. While the lines of monsters, stretch across your face...

-HMG

It used to be much easier to forgive than to forget Because forgiveness is supposed to provide peace But you’re a hinderance to me And all the good you think your doing Only lights a brighter fire inside my chest Cause I can’t forgive or forget You took everything that I had left And the anger consumes me My blood is boiling I thought you were this good thing But you were my undoing

I hung on to every word that you’ve said to me From the moment you said them I knew you were mine You said you were mine I thought you were mine Do you know what Anouk said When you left our group for the first time She said “Be careful with this one guys She will do what it takes to survive” You and your words flooded our senses Your sentences left us defenseless You built us palaces out of opinions You built cathedrals I’m just thinking about the things that you said to me I’m searching and scanning for answers in every line For some kind of sign And when you were mine The world seemed To burn Burn You gossiped about their secrets You told the whole grade How they were dating In clearing your name You have ruined their lives Do you know what I said? When I heard what you’d done I said I’ve pitied an icarus She’s flown to close to the sun You and your words Obsessed with being popular Your sentences bordered unsent less And you were never paranoid In the first place How they perceive you You you you! We’re erasing ourselves From the narrative Let all your “friends” wonder How we reacted When you broke our hearts You’ve torn it all apart I’m watching us Burn The grade has no right to our hearts The grade has no place in our heads They shouldn’t no what we said We’re burning the memories Burning the apologies That might have redeemed you You forfeit all rights to our hearts You forfeit the place in our heads You can cry in the bathroom instead With only the memories Of when you were ours We hope that you Burn

Yes I did just re write burn from Hamilton. I told you I loved Hamilton.

It used to be much easier to forgive than to forget

The horrifying memories turned brighter in my head

Then age tapped me on the shoulder Said “there’re pains you must review”

And now I find the whole of me Considering anew

Stop where you are Look upon a star See the bigger picture It doesn’t take a preacher To appreciate peace Which only comes with ease When we choose to let go Show anger the door Forgive and forget Release the debt Of emotional baggage To heal the damage That’s self inflicted Righteously convicted Failing to move on Is the real con X marks the spot Your heart is in a knot Suffering for their crime Wasting your very own time Doing the most To continue hating on a ghost

It used to be easier to forgive than forget The times when I was younger The hurts only left a dent Now I face adulthood Broken hearts and grief And then I realize forgiving is another feat