He has always been like a brother,

A home away from another,

Secrets we keep for each other,

But an anger so strong,

My whole body would shudder,

A love that would smoother,

So suffocating in silence i suffer,

So much pain you can write a song,

But we was my lover,

With us we can recover,

A love that only shows in color,

But in the end it felt so wrong,

Farewell, my almost lover.

...

December 6th, A day in history that will never be forgotten. I sit on my bench, in the front porch of my small blue house. My house sits at the very end of the street, over looking the forest, that has now grown into a mess of trees. I sit and think about this day, a day that has shaped the history of our world. I feel a buzzing in my pocket, i reach into it and grab my phone.

"Hey sweetheart, i...

There’s things we don’t even know, people around us who contribute to the pain.

“Genesis, how can you continue to trust these people, they only ever wanted to hurt us”.

I look at my sister with weary eyes. She’s to trusting, to forgiving.

She looks at me as if she were trying to comfort my mind.

“One thing they will never get from me is fear. I won’t allow them that power over me”.

I sit and ...

Dear Diary,

Ugh where do I start. It’s been awhile since I’ve sat with myself, and wrote my feelings down. I’ve been caught up in the most intimate passionate season of my life. I won’t name his name, but the way I just melt into his arms. He made me feel safe, he was my journal. He was calm, and patient. He observed my emotions and understood my reactions. He taught me how to love uncontrollab...

This is not right

I sit in silence

While you hold onto me tight

They way they call me in the night

Normally I’d only choose violence

But this time it was you who was in my sight

They tell me I better follow, or they just might bite

A piece of my soul and leave me in a fright

I dream and pray about defiance

But it’s true I need them in alliance

I wonder, is to late to step into the light

...

“Fuck”!. I yell out in pain as our spacecraft continues to go into a spiral crash. Three… four….. finally, it stops.

I lay there in pain, my leg was crushed by the desk and the computers.

“Is everyone alright”?.

….

“Ughhh, what just happened”!. Jennette yells out.

“Umm well I’m just gonna take a lucky guess n say we just crashed, Jennette”. Laury snaps back at Jennette’s question. ...

As I lay here, in this bed. With my covers over my face, and the sun glimmering through my blinds. I always think, how is there never enough time. Restless nights to only awaken with dry eyes. ‘Just one more minute’, I think to myself. Laying here when the many thoughts start to plague my mind. “What is the point?”. “Life is so uninteresting”. “I don’t even feel alive”. I lay here still thinking, ...

As I softly wipe my tears,

I stare into the mirror,

Something I’ve battled for years,

My thoughts have never been clearer,

Grasping to the idea of beautiful,

But chasing beauty is intangible,

That youll never be able to get ahold,

It’s as demeaning as Avaricious,

Spend your whole life being conspicuous,

Under the pressure to be an influence....

Awakening. The take in me

Looking at life differently

From the air I breath

To the people I see

Wondering if this is it for me

Will they see

The need for greed

And acceptance from a community

Will never be enough for me

Because I’ve been awoken spiritually

Opened up mentally

And now I’m ready to succeed

And be the great I see in me....

Is it me? Is it the way I talk? The way I walk? Is it my personality? What is it? Just tell me why everybody leaves me. Why am I not good enough to make you stay? Why can’t I be what you need? Your all that I need. I wish you could see how much I loved you. How I would give the world to you if I could. Your such a beautiful person, whose been damaged over and over. I just thought I could help put ...