I can’t trust myself to talk anymore

People don’t like words

No matter the mouth

From which they spout

I don’t mind not talking

Overthinking is something else

But not talking should be ok

I can keep to myself

I overshare

Way too often

Or try to stand my ground

I have learned not to share

With certain people in my life

It never ends well

But i force myself to bare

Not talking should be eas...

I still recall

Your joyous laugh

The way I looked so shocked

As you saved me from my past

The smoke began to fade

As I took your hand

How could we have known

The tale of how it would end?

You showed me your home

I couldn’t imagine going back

And yet, betrayal runs deep

And my heart starts to crack

Your yells and your screams

Blaming me for not my deed

As she flees in the green

Star clenched in h...

Ever since I can remember,

I’ve been alone, just a dying ember,

Born into a family I wasn’t supposed to be,

I had a father who took his anger out on me,

With fists of fury I was always beaten full of worry,

As they’d rain down on me like a verse unrehearsed,

In the deafening silence my cries l remained unheard,

My siblings that filled me with hate,

Confused my heart filling my life with rage,

At s...

Every day, every night

I sit alone, no one in sight

Lights on, darkness gives me a fright

That's why I left you, to bathe in the light

My window, now shattered glass

You hit it with a tennis ball, heavy mass

Now on the grass

My window is broken from your hard pass

You broke my window

Shattered, I won't forgive though

Trudging through seven feet of snow

Dodging the insults you throw

My trust, yo...

I held my boy

My sweet baby brother

I had to promise him

That his Bea would not go

And I would not be stolen

It hurts

Because the one who stole me

Was myself

Every single time...

I was walking down the aisle

With a bouquet of yellow roses

When they started to wilt

The closer we got to the altar—

My feet started to tremble

And my knees wobbled.

I was sixteen again

And my insides were made of jelly.

The boy with the broken spirit

Begs me to love him.

And, foolishly, I’ve been an overwatered garden

And love flourishes in the deepest hollows of my being.

I poured him a tall...

shattered trust

broken heart

hurtful past

dreading doom

tired eyes

crying out

endless nights

painful rues...

I can’t believe it, how could she?

Bruises, cuts, all over me.

No apology, no sorry.

I try to forget, really try.

I try hard not to, but I cry.

I try to make my words flow now,

But my poetry is dead, left me.

I wept for my words, not my hurt,

I used to write my problems down,

Flowing, syllables, symmetry, simple,

Now my words are stuck, gone, missing.

I write things down, they rhyme for sure,

N...

He said trust me, I’ll keep you safe.

I’ll protect you and never let you go.

He promised and promised, so many broken promises.

He told me I was his one in a million, that I saved him.

But how could I have saved him when I was barely saving myself?

I trusted him, I trusted him with my life. To keep safe and warm at night.

He broke so many promises, cut me off from the people I cherished the ...

I built my life upon your lies

Trusting you hurts more

Then you'll realize

I loved you more than I loved life

I cared too much

I held you so high

I wanted to be like you

How to sing so beautiful

How to smile so brightly

Your laugh is beautiful

I didn't realize the shadow you cast

The songs you sang in the morning

Became a warning you were slipping

You stopped smiling a real sm...