They say that everyone’s good inside But is that really true

I look at the mirror and ask myself Have I done anything wrong?

I try to think But my inner voice screams no

I can’t let it go When does a man become a monster?

“Man or monster?” Read the sign in huge blocky letters, All of the lights in my brain rang to walk away, But I knew I had to see the grotesque scene, I sat in the circle-shaped tent alone waiting while my leg bobbed up and down in anticipation, My mind began to wonder what he would act like, would he diminish himself solely for this show? Was he always acting in this manner? “INTRODUCING!!!!!! THE ONE!!!! THE ONLY!!!!!!! MAN OR MONSTER!!!! IS HE A MAN??? IS HE AN ABOMINATION???” My mind comes back after hearing those words, I was ready to see him. Out came a cylindrical cage covered in a wine-colored cover- the cage didn't appear to be shaking, And the silence coming from up there kept me mute Finally The ringmaster removes the wine cover to reveal a shriveled human, Its bones peaked under its transparent skin littered with veins, Its mouth is the color of dried blood and its body is hunched in an unhuman scene Its overgrown hair covered its downwards-faced complexion The ringmaster snaps for him to look up to the crowd The glimmer of astonishment in my eyes changed to disgust as I recognized his eyes as my own, I look down in shame at the twisted, emaciated mirror image in front of me, When does a man become a monster?

TW////// self harm

Hey, younger me What have you done? You grew up so fast You shone like the sun

Hey, younger me Where did you go? You never came back From the first fall of snow

Hey, younger me Please come back soon I miss our old days Nights lit by the moon

Hey, younger me You’d hate what I’ve become I’m sorry- I’m sorry- Do you see our blood run?

Hey, younger me Im scared without you The skies have turned black And my head’s feeling blue

Hey, younger me Quit going away I need you right now I need you to stay

Hey, younger me I don’t know what to do I’m so broken and lost Did I bury you?

Hey, younger me I cut open my wrist What’s wrong with me? Why did I feel bliss?

Hey, younger me Look at all of my scars We’ve gone from bright to dull ‘Cause your eyes used to be stars

Hey, younger me When did my best friend- Become nails-blade-rock I want this to end

Hey, younger me? See my long-sleeves red stained? Should I give up on trying? I’ll forever be pained

Hey, younger me Where is your glow? The spark in my eyes Disappeared long ago

Hey, younger me Riddle me this My skin is no paper So why is it slit?

Hey, younger me We’ve got so much to conquer Is it really that bad? When does man become monster?

The floor falls toward me I try to block the fall But I fail My head hits the table.

I try to stand up My legs fall away. He laughs, I hear a scream.

My close cropped hair, Scar freckled body, Overgrown muscles, Various tattoos

I match him. He also has scars And muscles And tattoos

The difference is, It’s his foot And my ribs It’s not his pain.

The problem is, I don’t know, Yet I ask a thousand times When, when, when, When does a man Become a monster

When does a man become a monster? A man that hurts you with his words With his hands Roams free A man your afraid of A man that cheats Is still human A man that leaves bruises A man that makes you feel your worst Moves on like normal He is not a monster to everybody So when does a man become a monster?

When does a man become a monster?

Is it when he first tastes the apple of sin, or when he plants the seeds of that fruit in the earth?

When he contaminates the very ground he walks upon, is it then that scales form on his flesh?

When he can't scrape the blood from beneath his fingernails, is it then that the horns grow upon his head?

Does a man truly become a monster?

Or was the ground already contaminated by the apple tree?

Was the blood merely from trying to escape the earthly prison of flesh he's contained in?

When does a man become a monster?

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every day repeats itself like a book on the shelf that i keep rereading

yearning for an answer to my undying desire the more i reach the more i end up bleeding

if i stain your hands red, would it make you want them instead? i don’t want to see you leaving

my bones are broken and sharp as i try to heal they only do harm why are you already grieving?

i bandage myself up i drink again from that cup through the forest i wander

you follow me there and because you still care, i tell you what i ponder

your face drops as i see your heart shatter i can’t breathe anymore, and my words just scatter. when does a man become a monster?

He didn’t mean it, he was having a bad day The source of his bad day he wouldn’t say

Silence is golden but also extremely toxic When she spoke he would change the topic

An all consuming anger let loose habitually Psychologically, the abuse was continuously

A circle of tournament, remaining unsquared Waiting on an apology, which was never shared

It wouldn’t have made an ounce of a difference Apart from even more unanswered questions

Like in her mind she would often ponder When does a man become a monster?

(TW: political topics) Saw the news today. One human being. Dead. Because of you.

But then..? You?

And then who’s side Am I on ?

Blue tears every night Or Red blood on the streets

Of course you are the B A D guy

TWENTY YEARS OLD? how does something like this happen?

you were only 20 and the dead guy had a family and you probably did too

but of course violence is never the answer i don’t doubt that

but you’re dead now and he is too

and I didn’t know you or him but I weep for the lost and scream for the living

The idiot or the manipulator Dementia or Discrimination Blue or Red Blue or Red Blue or Red CHOOSE A COLOR ALREADY

Why do we distance ourselves from anyone with different beliefs Because I’m sure all of us can agree on one thing The only people who try to kill are narcissistic idiots who think they’re special

You weren’t special You were just a normal kid 20 years… Damn You could’ve been a normal kid! You could’ve been happy

And then him He had a family He had a family He had a fucking family. And you just endangered so many lives Without a second thought He died

And now… We’re fucked.

i don’t know how we came to be what we came to be whether it be god(s?) or just plain old evolution

but…

i don’t think our brains were built to process all the horror in the world right now and still care about all of it.

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Get in while you still can! Before another wall is built Book your tickets! Save a stash of money under your mattress For when things get really bad Human nature is to destroy itself and so Get out while you still can. Burn your books Before they catch you! Play hide and seek with the government But they’ll find you eventually! But- When they hurt you? Well… Don’t let them do that. You won’t be able to afford healthcare.

                                                                                    After all this 
                                                                                    What does it take?!

When does a man Become a monster?

When does a man become an angel Is it when he loves And Cares And helps Does a man become an angel when he admits is wrong doings And when he Helps the homeless on the street Does Jesus make him an angel when he stops someone from making a mistake or opens his eyes to the lord But some men never become angels Some men hurt their brothers and kill their mothers some men would rather die than to help another Some men manipulate Some men Scheme Some men Gamble their lives away Some men drink and drink and drink until it kills their wife and kids some men lie to officers some men take our right some men are evil so the real question is When does a man become a monster?