I follow your ghost around the corner

because I want to burn with you

To feel the lick of the flames on my bones

To let them char under your heated gaze

I would do anything

to fill myself with the tainted parts of you

To lose myself in you

To become a ghost while chasing you...

_You got attachment issues,_ They tell me.

_Gotta learn to let go,_ They say.

I got the issues, but who gave them to me?

It was contagious, and I became sick.

How do I let go, when I hold on so tight?

My knuckles are bruised and pale.

I didn’t even notice you were gone til you left

Didn’t see you abandon me til you did

I was a fool, am a fool

I tried to chase you and hold onto what was left

...

Going

Going

Gone.

The day that gavel struck my life, I knew what was coming.

Life seeping from your skin,

Age hollowing your bones.

But a smile that never faltered.

_Going once…_

I found you on the step—

Grinning so broadly it must’ve hurt.

_I know it did_.

Before I could ask you how long you’d been lying there,

you turned from me,

into the harsh winter air.

_Going twice…_

You told me not to ...

(Not on theme, I just needed to write this somewhere)

I lost you today

I don’t know what else to say

My eyes are waterfalls

That won’t stop coming down

Your light used to shine

All throughout my hearts town

My heart feels ripped open

I can’t get enough air

Because you aren’t here

To filter it and care

I love you still

And will never forget you

I couldn’t if I tried

It’s my fault partly

I was ...

faster.

faster. faster.

i pant.

not enough.

never enough.

catch up.

catch up. catch up.

not again.

i can’t lose, again.

my feet pound the wet pavement and i push.

i push through the exhaustion.

through the despair.

i’ll find you.

i will.

streetlights glisten off the wet asphalt.

the orange glow reflects through my eyes.

i peer into every window.

walk through every door.

no one ...

It was a year ago

When you left me with a hole

It was a year ago

When you left me

Without a home

This long dry road

Seems to be the only road I know

On my way too Sacramento

Chasing your ghost

Casing your ghost

But little did I know

Chasing you

Would make me a ghost too

Oh I’m

On my way to Sacramento

Chasing your ghost

But little did I know

Chasing you

Would make me a ghost too

A...

I chase after people

Who don't really care about me.

And I chase after people.

Who could care less about me.

So why am I choosing the people that I

DEBATE?

And why am I just a fish's

BAIT?

The people I chase,

They're translucent.

Seeable, but not really.

Kind, but not dearly.

But they change me,

And morph me,

Until I'm just like them.

(this goes out to S)...

I stop looking-

You haunt the edge of my vision.

I turn toward you-

You start to disappear.

I take a step forward-

You go hazy.

I reach out-

You crumble to dust.

I fall to the ground, lonelier, emptier than ever before-

You’re always just out of reach…

I thought of you again today.

It’s more than thinking, though.

I swear you were right there.

I could feel your arms around me.

I could hear yo...

You were the music to my ears,

The constant song that played.

A Melody so soft and sweet,

I thought you’d never fade.

But suddenly, the record stopped,

And silence took its place.

The darkness swallowed you,

And you were gone without a trace.

I waited for 1000 years,

For you to come around.

I listened for your melody,

In each and every sound.

Now the record’s cracked and worn,

It ga...

*prompt is the theme, but not actually a part of the poem. it is the theme though.*

Sometimes I wish I could erase

all the memories of you that drill into my head.

Forget the fact we used to be close.

It only hurts when you remember what they said

before they went and got themselves dead.

Your words are a reminder that echoes through my brain,

a calm yet menacing feeling pounding down my spine,

...