While chasing your ghost

I became one myself

I wanted your love

Because I needed help...

Beyond recognition

Friends petition for his return to form

But they can’t see that the man they once knew is no more

He phased away

Yet his physical remained the same

You can call him out but he won’t answer to his name

Initially

He gradually wilted and lost his luster

Was once radiant with life

Now his branches lack their color

It was obviously

Ominous

That he was merging to the other side

...

Enquanto eu procurava pelo seu fantasma, eu mesma me tornei um

Passei anos vagando pela minha cidade, pela sua, por outras que você nunca foi

Gastei tempo tentando rezar e negar a existência do deus que te regia

Chorei pelo que restou de você e chorei quando senti que não restava nada

E assim a versão de quem eu era antes de você foi morrendo, e morrendo

Eu senti o luto da sua morte por anos que ...

While chasing your ghost I became one myself now I’m so dead inside not one will help when you killed yourself trying to save someone who never would do the same for you...

While chasing your ghost, I became one myself

I felt I deserved your touch

And chased till I had no breath

I fought for life

And fought for breath

And when I ran out

I knew there was nothing left

Except to let go and become what I was meant to be...

He's just a phantom in the air

No one even knows he's there

What a lovely gift for me

A ghost that only I can see

All he gives is endless pain

An endless storm with endless rain

He's choked me, broke me, crossed the line

He's hurt me for the final time

I finally snap and take my stand

He saw my fury and he ran

I vow that he will be no more

I'll track him down for evermore

He flees, I chase, I h...

You said that you loved me

and of that I was sure

You kissed my cheek

on your way out the door

I let you in

My locked off heart

Little did I know

you were just playing a part

You held me tight

and we danced all night

under the stars

and the moonlight

You made me happy

And you gave me hope

You let me become

Wild and free

You told me if I listened

I would get a reward

You told me if I listened

...

I follow your ghost around the corner

because I want to burn with you

To feel the lick of the flames on my bones

To let them char under your heated gaze

I would do anything

to fill myself with the tainted parts of you

To lose myself in you

To become a ghost while chasing you...

_You got attachment issues,_ They tell me.

_Gotta learn to let go,_ They say.

I got the issues, but who gave them to me?

It was contagious, and I became sick.

How do I let go, when I hold on so tight?

My knuckles are bruised and pale.

I didn’t even notice you were gone til you left

Didn’t see you abandon me til you did

I was a fool, am a fool

I tried to chase you and hold onto what was left

...

Going

Going

Gone.

The day that gavel struck my life, I knew what was coming.

Life seeping from your skin,

Age hollowing your bones.

But a smile that never faltered.

_Going once…_

I found you on the step—

Grinning so broadly it must’ve hurt.

_I know it did_.

Before I could ask you how long you’d been lying there,

you turned from me,

into the harsh winter air.

_Going twice…_

You told me not to ...