Have I ever actually _Belonged_?

What does it mean anyway?

I am different than everyone else,

I have always known that,

But this…..

This is new.

I know its no big deal

Who I love

Or who I don’t

But i bottle it up inside

Wondering if i would still _Belong_.

I know some places I _belong_

And I know i can _belong_ anywhere

That i can make my home

But _belonging_ in a physical sense

Is much differ...

Forever, I have searched

For love.

Forever, I have been as foolish

As a dove.

Forever, I will continue to be this way.

I won’t disappoint those above.

Forever, I have seen

Your face.

Forever, I have felt out

Of place.

Forever, grateful for you to be here,

Even if love is a race....

Connected by lace,

An Invisible brace,

Energy unknown,

Charming me to roam.

She could be right here,

Yet I’m left to peer,

Through the world’s faces,

Snooping through spaces.

She searches earth too,

Darting through green, blue-

Or, at least, I hope,

She looks for our rope.

I can only dream,

That she’s a sun beam,

Caught in an eclipse,

Wishing for my lips.

Across or far from,

Desire pounds drum...

Stick with the ones who don’t flinch when you show up messy.

The ones who don’t just hear your words, they feel them.

The ones who remember the things you don’t say out loud.

Hold tight to the people who brag about your heart when you’re not there to defend it,

and sit with you in the hard, quiet moments when there’s nothing left to fix.

You know the ones…

The ones who love you in ways that...

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I want to fit in

I want friends

But I can’t

I try so hard

It never matters

Society is flowed

Focusing on skin

Not the person

I want to fit in

What will I pay

Being shallow

Hurting others

Being perfect

Just a pretty face

I can’t do that

The pain in my gut

Would grow

Till I drown in it

Till I choose to die

To take my life

Belonging is pointless

So I won’t even try

Sitting alone

That’s ...

Hollow words leave nothing but decay

I have lived so long in rot filled relationships

I can smell it a mile away

From smiles across the room I can see the corroded teeth

I know the act of lying is a necessity for living

But I have left those crumbling friendships for something better

Through the act of accepting myself

I have found friendships of moral equality

Were the growth of the many...

Once upon a time,

I’d long to belong to you

with you

near you

beside you, yet,

instead, you’d lie and say,

“I won’t be long,”

but you would always

be gone too long,

and I’d still be longing

for you to belong to me...

I want to belong with me

I lost myself this month

Don’t know who I am

Don’t know how to find my old self

Don’t know who I can

I want to belong with me

Feel like myself when I look in the mirror

Rather than feel afloat

Want to feel grounded

But something grips me-some terror

I want to belong with me

With some pep in my step

A smile on my face

A goal in mind

A future I can dream of

I want to b...

Tell me a boring story

About one stupid event

The whole emotional roller coaster

And what everything meant

Belonging in its glory...

The only place I belong is in my skin.

But it gets hard to find where my skin belongs

I know where it has before

And I can envision where it will be

But right now?

You can always tell when your skin doesn’t belong

You can feel it sucking in

Trying to trade places with you

Sometimes it’s easy to tell where it belongs

It doesn’t suck in

It expands out

And fills a room

And it’s hard to ...