I feel like I had the world with her

For a short amount of time.

Maybe it wasn’t real.

To her

But to me I loved it

Destroying my thoughts, my being

Was it even that much for you?

Did you feel like I felt?

I destroyed my life.

I took down everything.

Cut off people.

Became isolated.

I loved it though,

I did it to myself

Know your life was never destroyed

You can always rebuild

Love...

Scalding and sputtering my fingertips blister and bubble

A cloud fills the air as I drizzle all too quickly

I scrape with and unforeseen resentment

And plop

Coffin like, into a aluminum box

Then straight into a 400 degree incinerator it goes

My coffee cake...

If B then C,

Why can’t I C

What to make of this?

If N then O,

Why can’t I know

What will happen in the coming time?

If A, then B, then C,

Then D;

Shouldn’t E come next?

So If X then Y,

Then Y did Y,

Come slumping after D?...

I wish I was more perspicacious I wish I made my bed every morning before today I must be assiduous more and more keep it tidy /hope to not even let a crumb fall upon these sheets let the pillow never fall and the pillow cases be washed. I wish I could think it and do it but the times got pushed back ....

Waking up early, getting ready,

I have to work not sure how will go,

Dropped me off, and I started my day.

Pull out the information,

I have no idea,

Wait, you what?

Figured it out, oh my dear.

Scared me, you better know this.

Powerful morning,

Tired afternoon,

In between is my daily stage.

As time goes, there are still more to learn.

How can you be so confident?

Practice makes perfect, you know ri...

In twilight's glow, we march to the sweet,

You promise the trip but refuse the treat.

"No ice cream for me," you coldly decree,

While I crave the joy we could share, you see.

How can you stand there, love in your eyes,

And crush my heart with such cruel guise?

Damn your refusal, your stubborn disdain,

For in this moment, you bring me pain.

Take me for ice cream, but feel my ire,

Your empty hands...

Luna, the name encompassed my entire life,

It echoed in streets and swam through oceans.

It struck me down, pierced with a single knife,

Sorcery I yell, this witch brewed love potions.

Luna, the name glowed in my darkest hours,

I wish to dance and frolic in fields of Green.

Your ethereal eyes and your scent of flowers,

I imagine the age of time, all that has not been.

It is just a name, all I ha...

Wicks burnt and crosses hung.

Your seat grew frigid beneath the rose colored glass.

The holy light shining on us all.

Yet I sit alone.

With his presence in proximity,

but what about yours?

My pearls hung from my neck and my makeup smudged at the crevices of my eyes.

I’m sore, and aching for your companionship.

I’m held spiritually but I want to be physically.

I’m losing weight just sitting...

An awful loss

That I have encountered

I've searched everywhere

but nowhere have I found her

She's the kind that I admire

no other type do I desire

I sink in despair

comes true, my fear

my mechanical pencil

is no longer here...

A glass once full

Now shattered like my heart

In bits

And pieces

The delicious drink

Now a puddle

Creamy white

Against the dark tile floors

I collapse on my knees

In frustration

In sadnesss

Tears in my eyes

When my mother comes

With cloth in her hands

And says

“Don’t cry over spilled milk.”...