im okay.

on the stage

i’m okay

beneath the spotlights

i’m okay

but in my darkest moments

when the camera turns off

i’m not

they’re just lines

from a script i memorised

rehearsed till perfection

rehearsed till you can’t find the flaws

i’m really not okay

backstage i’m a mess

i’m broken and shattered and exhausted

but when i get on the stage

i’m okay

i have to be okay

i have to play my part

i have...

There was a nervous tension radiating through most of the performers jittering legs betrayed the outward look of calm. Staring at her crew an intense feeling of pride overtook rhe nerves she had been feeling previously. Taking a calming breath, Eve transitioned into an authoritative posture before stiding into the line of sight of her team.

“They are pretty good.” She dropped challengingly.

...

I learned to live behind a mask,

Hiding all my feelings.

Force a smile, and if they ask,

Pretend I'm not still reeling.

I learned to live unlike myself,

Bending to every wish.

Fading, but you could never tell.

Was it worth the risk?

I learned to live with all formality,

Playing my part with ease.

Slowly, painfully, I forgot reality.

Who was I supposed to be?

I learned to live a dangerous lie,

W...

I can make the stars

Or I can make you see some

Sprinkle some fairy dust

And make you shine

Or load you in dust

To make you blind

I can pull the strings

And make you dance to my tune

You could be a dancing mermaid

Or nothing for all I care

You sing, I chorus

You dance, I group

You shout, I amplify

You cry, I shut down

You get standing ovation

And continuous claps

Followed by fame and wealth

Whi...

I am like play.

My only purpose is to entertain.

Sometimes I make you laugh,

Sometimes I make you gasp.

Sometimes I make you worry,

Sometimes I make you smile.

Sometimes I make you cry,

Sometimes I make you care.

I can be whatever you want.

Just tell me what genre you’d like,

And I can be it.

He wants a comedy,

And she wants a romance.

He wants a fantasy,

And she wants a tragedy.

I can perform wha...

A beautiful dance of smiles

With moves so precise

But what nobody knows

Is the strife behind the scenes

Little Anna is an orphan

Alone and afraid

But never tells a soul

George is forced to do what he doesn’t want

He doesn’t have his own life

But lives for another

Headmaster Sally

Looks cam, cool, and collected

But behind the scenes she wants to be mended

Betrayed by her boyfriend

Overwhelmed ...

Is this the end?

This can’t be it

Surely not

Right?

Tears threatening to flow

As the curtains whizz by

Massive group hugs

As a goodbye

Back at home

Sore eyes tired from crying

Reminiscing on the times backstage

And the inside jokes

The songs

The friends

The dances

The everything.

Is this the end?

This can’t be it

Surely not

Right?

^^^^^

Today was my last show at the pantomime I’ve been doing...

I watch you dance

Your short curls flowing with your grace

Your expression unwavered by the hundreds of faces

I watch you enviously

Your unmatched work jumps at my vision

The way your adorable grin smears across your face

The joy you bring to the world puts the sun to shame

I sit siliently…Waiting… Watching

Dancing in the background of your shadow

You can see me,

if you tried

And you hav...

Behind the scenes she falls

Crashing to the ground

Bruising her spirit

Pain pierces the skin

Erupting like a volcano

Spewing all over

Can’t escape it

Behind the scenes she cries

Hot tears spilling down her cheeks

Drying out her mouth

Creating a pounding in her head

Can’t escape it

Behind the scenes she’s teased

Tormented and mocked

Around her are laughs and smirks

While she stands frozen

Sh...

Behind the scenes

My hands are sweaty

My legs are shaking

My breath is shallow

But the show must go on.

Behind the scenes

I can’t see

I can’t feel

I can’t speak

But the show must go on.

Behind the scenes

My heart is shattered

My soul is crushed

My mind is numb

But the show must go on.

On the stage

My eyes are wild

My voice is fierce

I will not be controlled any longer.

I will not take part in ...