My stomach’s sick and ginger tea sits on the nightstand. I’m cold, but my thoughts are warm. You lay down next to me, and for the first time in forever, it feels like I might get better....

I was a brother once,

But now I’m no ones brother.

Just a father.

Just a husband.

Just a far away son.

Mom couldn’t wear the same black dress to all your guys’ funerals.

David was excited to be an uncle,

But he didn’t even make it to 26.

It was a shotgun wedding,

But perhaps the word inspired Kerry.

Two brothers didn’t have a choice.

Two did have a choice.

I’m the only one that ...

My temperates burns up.

My face brightens to a shade of the love I feel.

A long embrace, molding together for the first and last time.

A devotion until towers crumble, until the stars burst, until the moon fades.

A sword and a heart, an arrow and a heart.

Blood that was boiling, cooling down at the warm touch.

A love in only a dream.

In only a dream....

Their face is a bit murky.

Like the fog that always veiled my bedroom window.

Condensation patterned on the glass as I look up at the flickering light, water dripping down from the shower head.

I wipe the water off my face, but to no avail as the water keeps raining on me. Hot steam lifting off the tiled floor, like the fog outside.

I wince when the water starts cooling down, before my mus...

I haven’t smiled in a long time.

But you.

Oh, you.

“What?” you ask me, grinning with those damned eyes.

And as much as I fight it,

I can’t help but smile back.

“Nothing.” I whisper.

But it’s something.

It’s everything.

It’s the way you hold your pens, the way you sigh when you’re tired, the way you grab my hand when we cross the street. It’s the way you try to balance on the curb, the wa...

Beautiful.

She’s freaking beautiful.

She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met,

In any way you could measure it.

When she’s in the room -

I know.

I always know exactly where she is,

Am always somehow _aware_.

When she’s not around,

I’m stressed and anxious,

Itching to be near her.

Because when I’m near her…

There aren’t words.

It’s warm and cold

And safe and thrilling

And comfortable and unknown...

Sunlight is the beautiful language,

That I can no longer translate,

A golden canvas, forever unseen,

A whispered serenade.

But in your laughter's melody, a world unfurls,

Vibrant and unafraid.

Your touch, a poem for my fingertips,

Speaks of warmth, of kindness, a whispered rhyme.

The closest thing to sunshine I will ever need.

The curve of your cheek, a comforting cliff,

A haven I find i...

My dearly beloved daughter,

you are joyously welcomed to the universe.

May you bring joy and happiness

to your mother,

and may your father find pride and

celebration in everything you do.

May the honor of your presence

and existence bring pride and joy to your parents....

The bump in your nose,

The lines of your smile,

The crinkle of your eyes,

The angles of your teeth.

You often complain to me

How these features ruin you,

But really you just can’t see

That vision of you isn’t true.

For your nose is those of Rome,

Statues built to honor beauty.

Your smile means i’m home,

Accepting me, even moody.

Your eyes radiate warmth

That comforts with a look.

Your teet...

My throat closes up

My eyes sting

My nose runs

My whole body trembles

Sheer joy

Hovering confusion

Overwhelming longing

Mounting sadness

Absolute devastation

Seeing you

Is the biggest gift

And the worst prank

Anyone could ever pull

It felt so nice to hug you

Hear your voice

Listen to your wisdom

It felt so real

And then I woke up...