Cold water,

Seems warm.

When you are freezing.

Sunlight,

Seems hellish.

When you are of the dark.

Obsession,

Seems normal.

When you are without love.

Callousness,

Is a tool.

When all you know is softness.

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Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing,

Cold hands feel warm when you’re lonely,

Death feels warm when the suffering subsides,

Or when reality takes its spindly fingers around your throat and chokes out the joy.

You drown in cold water and it feels warm and freezing simultaneously.

You drown in death and see darkness and day simultaneously.

What comes after, do you know?

Do cowards hang onto t...

**authors note: currently writing this at like 12:00am so don’t be surprised if literally none of this makes sense**🙃💜****

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I can’t feel my feet

Or my hands

Or my face

But most concerning of all

Is the fact that my heart

Is colder than an Oklahoma fall

I think I’ve forgotten

What having feelings feels like

It’s been so long

And I’ve been so tired

I’ve lost everything

That I have...

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_“Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing.”

_Time stops so you can feel it,_

_The wind blows so you can hear it,_

_Yet your fire stays buried in your feelings._

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_The burning flame within your being—_

_This is your chance to see it._

_Let go, be free, and truly feel it._

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Stand outside!

Bare feet, no clothes.

Blood from splints as you pound the door.

Scream quietly,

Hearing your plea may break your dignity.

No more.

Just warm food and movie nights.

New affirmations begin.

His so kind,

His so gentle.

Echos.

He loves me.

He loves me.

He loves me.

Today, my chains don’t hurt,

Cause he loves me....

TW/authors notes: strong language, graphic depictions of violence and gore, religious themes.

“Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing.”

I remember hearing that, somewhere. Where was it? Perhaps just at the moment, it doesn’t matter.

I stare at her while her skin peels away, blood coming out from

everywhere.

Her mouth is opened,

opened **_w i d e_**.

It’s like sh...

Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing

Sunset feels light when it’s dark

How can my heart keep this beating

When we are thousands of miles apart

Money feels right when you’re winning

You made me feel right at home

But why do I wish to be feeling

Anything when I’m alone...

I don’t wanna die

Not really

I think you’ve misunderstood

I just don’t want to live

as me

anymore

I hate everything about me

And somehow i can’t change

So maybe being dead is the best option

I hate the way I look

And the way I act

I hate that i’m not good enough

And that I always think I’m the best

I hate how much my life revolves around other people

I hate that I think i’m smart ...

“Cold water feels warm while your freezing.” I said, in a snarky way, looking to my right to see my best friend, Wesley. He had a smug grin on his face knowing damn well what I was talking about. “It’s not my fault your so light” he retorted. I stepped further into the pool, shaking. I still can’t believe he just picked me up and threw me into the freezing cold water, now we’re at the shallow end...

Cold water feels warm when your freezing,

It must be pleasing,

Do feel warm in cold water!...