You were crystal clear like No clouds in the night sky. Stars twinkling in the distance. Our reflection in the lake. When you told me That you loved me.

You were opaque like opal When you told me you Weren't sure anymore. You wanted to take a break Fully aware that we were at risk Of cracking, of shattering - That was worth sacrificing for you. But your conflicting confusing wording Led me to believe there was hope.

I should let a caged bird fly away See the world Experience it all Wait for it to come back home, Patiently and faithfully.

You kept me in this in-between, I had the naive belief That the sediment would settle If I did, You would too.

All the sediment: The broken promises Tears dried on my cheeks Drinks half-drank on the kitchen counter Hours unslept and floors unswept, And words I recorded and reworded In an effort to best remember and reframe you.

All this sediment coated my mind and home. I thought it would accumulate to enough carbon To create a diamond under enough pressure If we put our love together when we came back together It would be set in our wedding rings But you never did. You not coming back became crystal clear eventually, And the smoke and mirrors eventually faded.

So I blew away the dust Began the cleanse. The search. Instigated and led by me.

Crystal dangling from my neck. Reflecting the sunshine brightly In the direction of my future. My own clear reflection in the water.

Inside my head the darkness reaches; pulling my heart into shadowed pieces. I wonder what it would be like, to find certainty. To know that stretch of life beyond my dreams; I'm voided honestly. Such a feverish soul, drawing storms in the fabric of my mind. It's all pain and breath, and the ways we scream to die. Inside clumsy little lullabies, is how I've grown to shiver. Drifting, and sipping, ah, my nightmares draped in distant silver...

-HMG

I thought our love was crystal clear You were the one I needed near But I was wrong, cause you’re not here You left me but you took your beer.

I thought our love would last infinity Thought I was for you and you were for me But now it’s easy for me to see You left me but you took your keys.

I thought our love was like something you’d read With a suit for you and a gown for me I thought we’d dance and twirl, so dizzy But you left me and took my happy ending.

I thought that you would love me to the worlds end Thought our love was perfect, turns out it’s bent I thought you were a gift from God, but your not Heaven sent You left me here without consent.

I am free,

Finally free.

No longer am I tormented by thoughts of you,

No longer does my heart go pitter-patter.

I’ve given you many chances to prove yourself,

To prove that you still care.

Yet there’s no more texts,

No more talking,

No more anything.

Even your own best friend has taken my side,

He says that it would be best to break up with

You,

A while ago, I would have strongly disagreed,

But now,

I can’t wait to do it,

I can’t wait for my fresh start.

I will miss the experiences we shared,

But we haven’t had those in a while.

We both deserve our fresh start.

Hoppy aroma breath and dulled morning vision are feelings not missed

Clear as crystal is the best way to describe it It usually is the first to go when you get bit

It instantly stops living right at the moment of pain There’s no use in trying to stall it, there is no gain

If you accept this new life you must possess it This new shiny heart will be quite the hit

For once you take on the role of vampire Your heart will no longer be bright as fire

For you will now have a cold dead heart But it will be a beautiful clear as crystal piece of art

I can see you now Clear as day I must have been blinded before With all my adoration Now all that’s left is frustration A longing for what once was Tell me what have we become Where there used to be so much love Now sits this hate And you may think that’s okay But I can see See how you’re unwinding Dying inside Hating to admit that I was right No longer putting up a fight Where did the love go Nobody knows

A thought, a pebble Tossed in a mind clear as crystal Can be seen traveling about the eyes Until it reaches a final resting place Or as some call it Conviction

Clear as mud, Thud, What can I hear? Not much, Just say it, What do you want? I’m not sure either, Clear as Crystal? Oh no, Definitely not…

I made it crystal clear Don’t try and conform me The tactic of fear When it ended I felt free

No idea why there was guilt Knowing I will not subsided Mirror Noir while looking at a mistake You can break it and fake it

Losing you was a substratum I know nothing can happen These words said were clear as crystal