When i was 5 I always wondered why people had scars on their and I thought it was cool like they fought a grizzly bear it was only when i turned 10 I realized they were only fighting themselves their emotions their grief their their depression like they were hanging by a thread build from a mama spider before it died and was forgotten and your just trying to stay alive but the heavy stone that holds you down leaves you in the dust and makes you the spider who build this home till you give up and rot in the cold dark hole

In the depths of despair, Amidst the shadows of sorrow, I see you, weary soul, Lost in the labyrinth of resentment. But listen closely, For in the silence, There is a symphony of hope, Echoing through the corridors of your heart.

You've spent so long, Trapped in the maze of anger, Trapped in a cycle of suffering… Blinded to the beauty, That surrounds you.

But it's never too late To open your eyes, To let go of the past, And embrace the infinite possibilities, Of tomorrow.

Release the weight of bitterness, Let it slip through your fingers, Like grains of sand, For holding onto the anger, Only anchors you down, When you were meant to soar.

Know this, There are hearts that beat for you, Lovers of your beautiful light Who would be shattered, If you were to fade into the night.

So believe in the power, That resides within you, For you are capable Of moving mountains, Of painting your own sky, With the colors of your dreams.

And though the road ahead, May seem daunting, Know that I walk beside you, For I have journied, Through the darkness, And emerged into the light.

So take my hand, And let us wander together, Into the dawn of a new day, Where the beauty of life awaits, In all its wondrous forms.

And let go, Of fear and regret That burden your heart. For you, my dear friend, Are deserving of every joy, Every love, Every dream.

Everything you’ve ever wished for, You have the power to obtain. And you are worthy of it all

she said kill yourself, i said i tried. she said you’re a whore, i said i know. she said you look wretched, i said i see.

he said cut your wrists, i said my knife is dull. he said you’re too fat, i said i’m starving. he said try being nice, i said fuck off.

they said do better, i said i’m trying. they said work harder, i said i’m trying. they said think smarter, i said i’m trying.

the bottom line is when day fades to night and you collapse into your bed with stinging arms and a growling stomach it doesn’t matter what he said she said they said what matters is waking up to see another day and proving all the haters wrong.

-edgaress allan poe

It’s hard I won’t lie Especially about something so true I’ve lost hope And just like you I’ve given up I thought that friendship and love were meant for me Even with my problems With my mental struggles I’d tried to fix it To find something I’d always longed But after months . . . Years of trying I lost all hope I wanted to stay in bed To cry my life away “I’m a mistake” I would say “And if I was meant to be here, I would have already found out why” I’m losing time I’m losing everything By sitting here by giving up And I don’t want to I want to try I want to fly I want love and friendship I want a life worth living So I’m telling you this Before it’s too late for you Do something Don’t give up Keep going, keep living Let me tell you If I could take back my lost time I would do it in a heartbeat Don’t make the same mistake I did Please don’t

What is the point of all this pain? What is the point of wishing to live again? What is the point of knowing I’ll never be sane, wandering around with nothing to gain?

Is it the chirp of crickets at night? The lanterns swinging, bringing peace and light? The smell of flowers after a storm? The crackle of a campfire, still bright and warm?

I wish I could tell you what you wanted to hear, That the world is perfect, not full of fear, But I am am not a liar, at least, not to you. We must keep hope, me and you.

And look for the little things in life, The things most ignore.

Such as the laugh of friends When things become clearer, Or the softness of dewy grass, Or the smile of the monster in the mirror,

The world is not perfect And that is our painful truth. But we must keep trying to find the light in a pitch black room.

Why do I go there You know, that place When things are hard Actually when harder I run there It gives me control, recourse To feel it To research it To find a way to do it that is easy And painless, but I don’t want to do it, I just want to be free in refuge Safe

I was lost I had no one to love And no one to love me I sacrificed the only person I had ever loved in my entire life to my best friend So she would be able to feel love Like I once did I had no one No one to love And no one to love me But at least they were together Happy and in love But then I found someone I loved Again She’s perfect It started out as a small crush But now I think I’m in love I haven’t told her And I don’t think I ever will Because I’m in love And I’m not ready to let go of it Not just yet

The sun still rose today And it will set today And someone will be born today

A flower bloomed today And someone sang a tune today And look fondly back on yesterday

And someone got a hug today And learned for the first time what is love today And maybe it wasn’t you, today

But the sun will rise tomorrow, I say And you’ll be there tomorrow, I say Then it could be your day

Hold on, it’s coming. I promise it’s almost here. The sun will be rising in the East and make the darkness dissipate. Hold onto my hand and I’ll help you out. I’ve been down there so many times. I never thought I would escape. I know, you can’t run from it. It follows you and it’s quick. Before you know it it has swallowed you whole.

Hold out for hope. Yes hope. It’s there, you just can’t see it yet. It’s like the first time you drive over that hill and see a mountain range. You have no idea how magnificent it is until you are upon it. So hold out for hope, it’s there.

Listen to me and step off that ledge. I know its hard when your on the edge. Listen to me and put down the rope. I know its hard when you've lost all hope. Things are dark and scary I know. But the world would be different if you decided to go. Think of all the ones you care about. You would really leave them behind without a doubt? You'll never smile just one more time. You'll never make it past your prime. Things are hard that's the way of life. But please I'm begging you, put down the knife. You'll always have me when life gets hard. To hold, to laugh, to love, to guard. Just come with me and I'll hold you tight. I'll stay with you throughout the night.