You look just as beautiful as the day I met you If not more You’ve changed

The time we spent apart The time you said you needed space That only made me love you more All I could see was your cocoon

You looked blank You looked lifeless You looked trapped

I wanted to help you I wanted to rip you out of that shell I missed you so much

The longer you were in there The more I worried you would never come out That’s what makes this so sweet

I can finally see you Your old self And your new wings The way they shine is beautiful But It’s hard for me to believe that this is really you How can I know?

I still love you all the same

This won’t last long Though I must go soon I am still a caterpillar

I have to work on myself now I don’t want you to go through what I did I don’t want you to worry about me So I need my space

See you soon

Maybe my wings will glow like yours

A beautiful butterfly Flies down by me. A tiny angel telling Me everything will all Be okay. I know this because God loves me and is Always protecting my Heart and soul. I pray For my family For all the animals, And for all Gods children, Good and Bad, that they May always feel his Love and know the Sacrifice his son Jesus ,Made for us . He died for our sins So we’d be Able to Live with him forever in heaven, where there Is no pain, fear, sadness, Or Sickness only Unconditional love and peace So sing his praises And always be grateful For every blessing And Then she flies free up to the heavens . So whimsical, so free. Butterfly Angel 🪽

⚠️ TW: suicide ⚠️

Do you remember the first time we saw the butterfly? Fluttering past the hospital window, with you on my chest for the first time… It was blue like the sky, like the ocean, like your eyes You might not have remembered then, but I know you remember now.

We saw it for a second time, at the little park just down the street A few years later, you were swinging high, pumping your little feet It flew right past you in a cerulean blur, leaving you behind it Blonde hair falling in your face, you swore someday you’d find it.

Ten years past, dropping you off at your first day of high school, good ol’ freshman year Mascara, lip gloss, blush and liner—you’re an entirely new person, I fear I watch you climb out of the car and you spot the butterfly of deepest blue But your friends wave you over, all of them makeuped too You run over to them, squealing and excited, the butterfly and I forgotten.

Sometimes the butterfly comes to visit me, since I never see you anymore I feel as if it’s encapsulated your spirit somehow from years of being outside closed doors I smile sadly, fondly, wistfully as I look back on the time we had—all those years Even then, I can’t find a way to stop the tears.

Your freshman year is as good as gone in the blink of an eye You’re off to summer camp with those friends of yours, leaving me with the butterfly I find solace in its company even though it feels as if you’ve left me for good this time You never call, your dad doesn’t either, and I’m left alone, left behind.

I close my eyes, lost in thought, the years of you becoming a haze When I get a call from your camp, words of sorrow, eyes washed with glaze “There was an accident,” they said, “I’m sorry,” they said My little baby girl was dead.

Time is lost to me, so is hope; I’m running out of ways to cope Every minute equivalent to an hour; grief is bitter, grief is sour I don’t know what to do with myself except to go and get you flowers.

I set the bundle on the stone, withering and cold It’s already been a few years, I’ve grown gray and old They said “time is of the essence,” but to me they lied No one could’ve saved you even if they would’ve tried When I lost you, I lost myself to a hole way deep inside I sold them to the devil, every shriveled tear I cried There is nothing left for me here, save the butterfly But even then, she’s broken, worn down by cruel time

I lay her on your grave, a final resting place With you she died and now I know that you will both be safe So I can leave, I can be free after being trapped for so long As a final word, I stand up, humming the melody of our favorite song Knowing that if you were here you’d be singing along I clutch my coat tight as I can, still murmuring the verse Pull the gun out of my pocket, eager to break my curse With steady hands I bring it to the side of my head Filled with peace—no remorse or a single ounce of dread

With you in mind and the gun shining under light of the moon I smile sadly and whisper, “I’m coming baby. I’ll see you soon.”

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A/N: First off, if you made it this far thank you so much for reading the whole thing! It took me two hours to write and perfect this piece for you guys. I would love feedback if you have any, I’m here to improve my writing! Thank yall so much 💕

I wrote letters And sent them to you.

Our letters had butterflies In the corners.

An example of how beautiful Our friendship was.

But, Like butterflies They don’t live forever.

But you went quicker than others.

It’s okay though, My butterfly I see you all the time. In different forms And I smile Knowing you still watch over me.

Love you elli.

She painted the Trembling Moths in My stomach To vibrant, Dancing, Butterflies.

Flying Wings that touch the sky So vidid So short a life

The butterfly roame the sky Smelling the roses Living Just busy being

I want to be To not think To live as an short living being To just exist

I am butterfly See my shine My honeydew wings Glistening I am a butterfly Look at me Aren’t I beautiful? Don’t you agree?

I am a butterfly See me fly My delicate wings Flapping I am a butterfly Can’t catch me Aren’t I clever? Are you playing?

I am a butterfly Set me free My fractured wings are Still I am a butterfly Why did you trap me? When I did nothing. Nothing at all.

I walk up slowly my eyes alight, my stomach twisting at the sight Her hair falls down in gentle waves, her eyes could light the sky for days Her smiles nice soft and sweet, she’s often happy and upbeat As i walk up to the scary the sight, the butterflies inside me begin to take flight

They flutter they fly, i desperately want to cry
They twist they turn, my unsaid words begin to burn They’ve completely taken over by the end, put on a smile lets pretend

In my perfect world butterflies dont fly, they stay away so that way you know what to say They don’t flutter they dont flap, they just pretend they give a jack

Butterflies are a thing of beauty but once they’re flapping all about, you want them to stop you want to shout But once they fly your hands go numb, you start to think « why am i so dumb » You approached the kid you love the most, head held high you know you’re toast But you can’t stop cause she stands right there, beautiful and elegant perfect as a pear

Your butterflies leap all about, they make you doubt Is this right, i need to get out of her sight

The beauty of butterflies revolves around one thing, they’re beautiful creatures then they open their wings

Butterflies that follow me wherever I go Butterflies that stay with me Never leave That’s more than I can say About a lot of people Butterflies With their beautiful wings Purple And blue White And black Butterflies that love me That don’t fly out the Open window Butterflies that care Butterflies that stay

Fluttering Uttering Flying Fleeting

Meeting Greeting Growing Knowing

Freeing Seeing Skying Trying

Beautiful Fruitful Loving Approving Tessa🦋