I’m walking home

Groceries in hand

It’s dark outside

Hard to see

The street lights flicker

Visibility dims

I come to a road

Start to cross

A car comes fast

Then suddenly… it’s over...

We knew the storms were coming

We didn’t think it would be this bad

As first it was the gentle gusts

That turned into rocking winds

At first it was little ripples in the water

That turned into mountainous waves

At first we had a captain

Who was thrown overboard by the storm

At first we had a boat

Now it is at the bottom of the sea

At first we had a crew

Who is now missing

At first I almos...

I dream about what it’d be like

To be the girl in my books

To be the girl that the boys fall in love with

The ones they kiss in the rain

The ones that joke with

The ones they give cute gestures

I want their love monologues

I want their silly banter

I want their friendship

I don’t want boys who text me all day long

I don’t want boys who deny they’re love for me

I don’t want boys who don’t ca...

It’s electrifying

And invigorating

And terrifying.

It starts with nights spent staring at the stars

And sharing parts of ourselves we thought would always just be ours.

Slowly, so slowly, it builds

Something too big for words

Then suddenly its everything, all at once you know. You’re sure.

You’re tumbling, falling so fast that nothing matters except this

Feeling. This

Hand in yours,

Keeping ...

I sit idle, in despair

On my fallen, broken chair

It’s quiet enough for the mind

For the mind to wonder if it’s kind

I’ve waited patient for something

For the door to ring

For the house to be cleaned

To convince myself, I wasn’t mean

The door has rung

I nearly broke a lung,

Working to get up

God I looked dumb

At the door was my Mom

She made me feel calm

My depression met a four-leaf clover

A...

I’m not okay.

Something inside me broke.

I have no patience,

No empathy,

No honesty.

I am a lying excuse for a person,

Just lying lying lying.

I’m not okay,

I hate me.

I hate the thoughts that tell me

I hate me.

I’m scared of my own mind.

I’m scared of the ideas,

The plans,

The futures - or lack of -

That my head creates.

I’m scared of the violence,

The chaos,

The waves of pain and fear

That colli...

if i look at old photos for too long

i start to feel sick

a nauseating, earth shattering

sickness

in those moments

before the flash

time seems to stretch out

forever

everybody holding poses

sucking in stomachs

knees creaking from the weight of

crouching

then suddenly it’s over

and they’ll forget all about it.

until one day

many, many years later

a sad girl who sits

alone

rotting away in her ...

Just like a year ago it’s cold outside. The snow is falling softly, kids laugh and run through the snow covered streets.

I walk down the side walk, dodging three kids who scurry past me.

As their laughter echos through the world, I see Davian, his smile that was so small but made a huge difference in my life. I see his black eyes that I always knew were hiding a secret, I just never knew what ...

first a look my way

then a glance towards you

an upwards curve at the corner of my lip

then not being able to get you off my mind

staring into each other’s eyes

stealing glances

looking then looking away when the other one sees

feeling butterflies when I hear your name

the butterflies fluttering more when you say my name

blushing when we have our minute conversations

letting my mind daydream about...

“The rules are pretty simple,” seventeen year old Gavin said, pushing his glasses up self consciously. He’d never played with the cool kids before, and had a creeping feeling they were using him.

“No cross hops in this section-“ Gavin motioned with his controller. “No jumps diagonal. And you can only hit triple rolls and flood attacks on the… the left strike. Jumping back and swooping low, you pu...