There was a point in time

When genuine kindness was startling to me.

Unusual behavior.

Especially to receive from friends.

I think that at some point in my head,

I must have changed the definition of that word,

Of friends.

And I was scared all the time.

More than I needed to be.

Because it was over.

I just didn’t know that.

How was I supposed to know that?

I changed the meaning of friend.

If thes...

Lani stepped back, red scars on her face. "Please stop! Please!" The scratching never stopped. Never ceased. The talons scraped her eyes, turning everything black. All that existed was pain.

She gasped awake, tears in her eyes.

The sun poked out from the horizen, and Lani stepped outside to the balcony. She stared out, trying to forget the dream. The shadows seemed to press in on her, clouding...

When darkness is all you’ve ever seen, light can be overwhelmingly bright.

When sorrow is all you’ve ever felt, joy can cause unbearable pain.

When loneliness is all you’ve ever encountered, friendship can be suffocatingly empty.

When nightmares are all you’ve ever known, dreams can be a truly frightful things.

When hurt is all you’ve ever experienced, healing can be a life long journey....

my life it’s always been agitating and a never ending cycle . I push to say anything. I always feel rushed. My life has always been a nightmare. I can’t think of anything else that makes me happy,the way my father treats me the way my mother, abandoned me. It sucks, I can’t wait to see my grandma she’s my only hope my grandpa died last year to and I can’t wait to help my grandma be able to get thr...

I read an article,

About emotional abuse in friendships and it

reminded me a lot of you.

I showed it to my mother and she said

The resemblance was scary.

For a second I thought about unblocking your number

Just to send it to you,

Caption it “It made me think of you”

And then block your number before I could get a response.

But I didn’t send it,

Cause I won’t cause a scene.

And while moving on is ...

“I need a savior?”

Well no one can save you.

You’re in the darkness now,

so no one can hear you.

Scream if you like.

Then see what will come through

See what will reach out

Poke it’s face and surprise you.

So mole over this mystery.

Hope that it hunts you.

Let it make you sweat.

As I choke on you viciously

And feast on your flesh.

But if you want to get rid of me

Better point to the next.

Ca...

Peace is a rarity

A phenomenal tranquility

I wish this were just a poem

But I’m afraid it’s reality

World is spiraling

It’s a monopoly

Sometimes I wonder

How I breath while suffocating

It’s gotten worse

Yeah I can tell ‘cause it hurts

To write another poem

From my bed-like hearse

I wish I could get over it

Gosh I’m an idiot

I wish I’d pick a side

Dead, or living like a piece of shit

I wish...

Amelie is used to nightmares.

They range from being unrealistically scary like an unknown monster chasing her to being realistically scary like losing all her friends.

When she was younger, her nightmares terrorized her. She would wake up in a start and then crawl into bed with her parents. They would tell her that they don’t mean anything. They are just nightmares.

But they were wrong. Night...

When all you have felt is hate

You push away the love

When all you have done is fallen

You don’t expect to fly

When nightmares are all you’ve ever known

Dreams are terrifying

And so I don’t dream

I don’t love

I don’t fly...

Nightmares

full of shadows and serial killers

Fear and Danger

terrorize me

Yet they are familiar

Become my friends

I come to expect them

when I close my eyes

Dreams

Full of hope and lost people

so fleeting, too short

Hurt way more

I’d much rather have nightmares

I miss my friends

Fear and Danger

I’ve come to know them

Sometimes the familiar

is the biggest comfort

even if it isn’t ideal

or posit...