I’m sorry I have been gone for so long

I haven’t really had anything to say

& then I did

But I was stuck in bed

In pain

So much pain

Visions

Auras

Zigzagging circles

Migraines

My vision partly lost

Blurred

I knew there was something there

But it was so

Disorienting

I look around

Stare at my face in the mirror

The top right & both bottom corners of my vision

Blurred out

Made me dizzy

Nauseous

I ha...

My heart aches

And my feet are numb

I’m blind to every thing and nothing is fun

My heart aches

And my eyes are tired

From crying all night, red and puffy when I wake

Tell me God

Why me?

Why must I suffer through all this pain, what does the future bode?

My soul is deprived of life

My heart hollow

Tell me, what will happen to me when I wake ‘morrow

God, take mercy on me

I’m a good person

I swear, ...

_“My generalised anxiety, a raced heartbeat, _

_I think I lose control as the shortened breath kicks in, _

_ boom boom boom, I carefully take this seat_

_ hearts coming right out my chest, it tightens, breathe. Breathe in, hold it… now breathe out, _

_Get up dip your face with a cold splash _

_It slowly expelling floods of doubt. _

_ Wow so easily exhausted _

_I can’t wait to go to bed_

_I wonder,...

A never ending cycle

Cuts

Bruises

Scars

Scabs

Heartache

It keeps repeating

The broken cracks

In my bones

Are the cracks that were made over time

Deep in me I feel shattered

Whenever I get in pain

I don’t cry

I push it away

In hopes to die

Glad that I am alive to experience

Another painful day

Pain in my life

Is a never ending cycle

I hurt myself everyday

Some in purpose

Som...

I cant keep going on like this.

Stuck in this cycle.

The replay button is sticky.

So it plays

over and over and over and over

Until I snap

I cant do this anymore

All the pain and the fear

I cant do this anymore

the shots and the late nights

I cant do this anymore

Not being anle to breathe

Heart rate going to 150

I cant do this anymore

Always being tired and being expensive

The supplies cost...

Pain makes me seek a refuge,

In the safety of your arms,

Like the strong branches,

Of an ancient oak tree,

Shielding me from the dark whispers,

Of the rest of this harsh, cruel world,

A fearless guardian,

In the quiet of the forest's embrace.

Your touch,

Gentle as a cool autumn breeze,

Yetso strong,

Like a needle and thread,

Weaving through the torn fabric of my being,

Stitching together the ...

It came as fast as a gun shot all in one moment I closed the car door and instantly

A throbbing pain came I felt faint and nauseous

Mom can around the car and asked if I was ok

I wasn’t I starting crying wishing for the pain to go away

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I slammed my middle finger in the car door and sprained it 😁

it still hurts really bad but im ok im talking a break from writting till its healed...

Push me to the ground

And run over my bones.

I’ll get up broken with cracks

And thank you.

Kill me with your words

And take away my dignity

I’ll cry and for the truth

I thank you.

Use me like a puppet

And tear off all my limbs

In my broken state all I can do

Is thank you.

Make me dependent on you

When my pain becomes to much

All I know to do

Is thank you.

Break me to the point

There’s nothing ...

Little worry stone

I wear you down until you are nothing

But dust and pebbles in my palm

Like a nicotine addict I use up

All that’s left of you

To remedy my own disorder

Reducing your fire to smoke and ash

I know I have made you a habit

And I want to pull away and let you be

Let you flourish far from my shadow

But pain makes me seek refuge

And I have come to think of your arms as a steeple

O...

Sadness remains my constant companion,

an unwelcome visitor sitting by my side,

a relentless stalker lurking around every corner.

Loneliness is my faithful follower,

the quiet rider sitting in the passenger seat.

It has become the shadow I cannot escape from.

Enjoyment in everyday life is a stranger,

someone I used to know but lost touch with long ago,

a face I would not recognize from all the o...