I should have never gone down that rabbit hole! At first the falling felt nice, The warmth of love melted the ice Of the past coldness.

But now I have landed In the harshness of winter Where my heart lays in a splinter From his cold spear.

O how foolish I am To believe he could like me, Someone so wild like the sea! O curse me! Curse me!

I should never have gone down that rabbit hole. I should never have given in to my heart. I should never have tried to make something out of nothing. I should never have told you how I felt. You ruined my life. You ruined me. But in the end, it’s my fault. I shouldn’t have fallen for you. I shouldn’t have fallen, period. It happened again but I got over it, and now I’m fine. It didn’t hurt this time. But you? Yeah, you hurt. You hurt me bad. And the worst part is you don’t even know it. And I don’t even know how to forget about it. How to get over it. I’m over you. But not over it. It haunts me every single day. And I don’t know how to escape. It just hurts.

Remember that the next time someone says, “I should have never gone down that rabbit.” There is always a reason that we go through the path we pick. And that reason might be to get you stronger, smarter, wiser, happier, etc. The rain has to come before the rainbow. Remember that the next time someone says, “I should have never gone down that rabbit.”

My head’s spiraling, As does my stomach and life. The beer fell on the ground, As did my father. The containers empty, Fuller than my heart. I should have known from the start, That I should have never gone down that rabbit hole.

I should have never gone down that rabbit hole… Down the rabbit hole, I took a dive, In Wonderland's magic, where things come alive. Following the white rabbit, a whimsical quest, But soon, I realized, it wasn't the best.

Talking flowers, and cats with a wide grin, A mad tea party where chaos begins. The Queen of Hearts shouting to the guards, "Off with her head!" I thought, "I should've stayed home instead."

In Wonderland's maze, lost and alone, Regret echoed, a feeling overthrown. I learned a lesson from that rabbit hole, Sometimes, curiosity takes a heavy toll.

(Not the prompt, oops) This reminds me of Pink Panther The pulsing beat As I’m sitting here Under the red light Next to my sweet company I forget every small insignificant trouble I’m present

I sway my body Protected under my scarf Looking over every stranger His saxophone catches my eye And beneath the color, it’s mesmerizing I like it here

Red often reminds me of fear and anger Harsh memories Red will remind me of jazz from now on To move in love

This moment won’t last forever And I’m jealous of the me right now Who gets to live in this second forever Sitting on a fickle chair Sipping on a yam drink

I feel reborn after that escalating beat The type of desired rythm that I lust for Your music makes me feel colors Blue and purple And somehow

I should never have gone down that rabbit hole.
I should never have fallen into this pit of terrifying wonder.

They say that it’s a place you can only find in dreams. That much, they know, true. But they’re only thinking of one kind of dream, and in my book, they’re two.

A nightmare. That’s what this place is. The kind that shakes you awake.

A place full of horrors and tragedy’s, sights I just can’t take.

Like a queen who rules her people out of fear, not love, not like a queen should.

Fear, anxiety, flooding through the walls. Overflowing, filling your brain unlike anyplace would.

I need to go. I have to leave. I can’t stay here, not any longer. Please, rabbit hole, take me back.

I need to go, out of this place full of horrible dreams. Goodness, this place entirely lacks.

Take me rabbit hole. Take me away. I want, no I need, to get home.

Let me go please. You can’t make me stay. This wonder, it chills me to the bone,

I regret loving you. I regret kissing you. The moment I regretted you. Was the moment you struck me. You struck my heart the day we met. You were sweet. But kindness is deadly. I regret falling for your tricks. Silly rabbit tricks are for fools. Past me was a fool. Falling in love with you. I regret giving you everything. I gave you my love. I gave you my support. I’m return I got violence. Violence! You said it would toughen me up. Get me ready for the future. There’s no future with you. I regret staying with you. You begged me not to leave. You called me weak after a hit to the face. Your the one who’s weak. Getting on your knees and begging. That’s pitiful. I regret making you my first love. That wasn’t love. That was torture. Seeing you get violent. Was terrifying. But I grew to become stronger than you. My knowledge. My regrets. My lost of love for you. I regret being with you!

I always agree with what you say I could never turn you away

And to you I could never say no For I feel as I have something to owe

I live to hear your kind words Like those of the sweet song of birds

And though I feel like a burden It causes your sadness to verden

And while your sweet words will sometimes wound me They can also set me ‘free’

For that is what I’d like to say

Those words will tear me down And make me feel as though I’m just a clown

A clown there for yours and everyones entertainment While keeping my emotions under containment

I change myself to meet all their needs As my wounds bleed and bleed

I wish I could deny your wish Maybe I’m just selfish?

Myself I try to console I should have never gone down that rabbit hole

I should have never gone down that rabbit hole. I've read the stories. Always a favorite of mine. And yes. I did think, or really hoped, I'd find the white rabbit and the queen of hearts and adventure and all sorts of things at the bottom. Now, as I lay here, my neck obviously broken by the weird angle I'm looking at things and the lack of pain, I can hear them as they scurry to get a look, a smell, maybe even a little taste. I say again, I should have never gone down that rabbit hole.