I have always wanted you. I wanted you the moment you first blessed me with your fair face; I will want you still as I lay weak and trembling in my final hour. I want you despite your callousness, your failures and trials and griefs and frustrations. I want you foolishly, with the entirety of my tired being, knowing my life would be easier if I did not. I want you as the common man wants for liberty, as the rich man wants for nothing, as the blind man wants to look into the light. I want you as the sick child wants for comfort, as the law wants to punish, as the winter wants to ravage the lives of the innocent. Whether you know it or not, you have written your name on my heart over and over, each time you met my sad, sunken eyes or pronounced my name---even if it was with a scowl. I am alive only in your presence; without you, I am simply awake. Rebuff me and ignore me and despise me as you wish, I will cherish you until the world is at peace and every person wears a genuine smile, until hate is dead and greed becomes unnecessary, until there are no more borders or biases or pretty lies. As long as misery exists on earth, I will never stop loving you.

Hey.

I’ve been staring at this blank page long enough, I just can’t put what I want to say into words. You fill my mind every chance you get whether it’s intentional or not.

I don’t even know what I want to say to you. It’s kind of funny how I’ve been thinking of you for months, had dreams where you were back with me, and randomly think about everything we did together. Yet when I finally write the thoughts down, maybe to just stop them looping in my head, they all disappear and I have nothing to say.

I knew I shouldn’t have left you, you told me to stay in touch and I did. Every. Single. Day. I messaged you, talked to you, we sent pictures, videos, talked for hours. Then you just stopped. You hypocrite. I messaged you multiple times this year and I’ve been left on delivered since last Christmas. Last Christmas Day.

And I don’t like Christmas, yet I yearn for this one to come closer, just so I have an excuse to message you. A simple ‘merry Christmas’ maybe even a ‘<3’ we used to sign every message off with that. I’m counting the days until I have that reason to just message you. And if you don’t read it, I’ll take it as a message you just didn’t send and I’ll try to forget about you. It will have been a year and a year is enough.

I met you when we first started secondary, I stood up for you when our friend group fell out with you and I lost all of them because of it. But it didn’t stop me from loving you. I had to leave after a few years because that school couldn’t support me, I was at the very end and you were the only reason I was still here, the only reason I am still here. But I had to leave before I couldn’t hold on to you any more.

I’m better now. I’m at a new school, they support me, I have friends (none as good as you). But I miss you that damn much I’m considering finishing my exams and going back to the school I first met you just to see you again, no matter what it does to my head.

I’m sorry. I’m probably exaggerating. Old friends have told me you are happy, so I’m happy.

Goodbye for now.

Dear N,

It’s been about a month since I last saw you. My birthday is in less than forty eight hours. I wish you could be there.

I wish we could sing Shut Up and Dance by Walk the Moon all across camp, even though we both say we’re scared to sing infront of others.

I wish I could sit again and listen to you speak of your boyfriend back in England.

I wish our time wasn’t temporary.

I wish we could’ve been together a little longer.

I wish you’ll be back again next year, so we can enjoy the temporary again.

• M

Dear Daily Prompt,

Thank you. I can’t thank you enough. It’s been a year since getting this app. My writing streak is at 365 today. This app taught me much more than just being consistent. You have shown me what a community can do. All of you have motivated me, encouraged me, and inspired me. Truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

I mean that. Thank you to everyone. People who have read, liked, commented, or followed me. It means so much. In addition, thank you to everyone who have posted your poems and stories. You inspire me and make me strive to improve. To continue my little stories.

I am insanely grateful. This community has been so nice and shown me new perspectives and ideas. I am more open to you guys than almost anyone in my real life. Writing at night (and early early morning) keeps me sane.

You are inspiring! Keep writing! ✍🏼

Sincerely, Anya ♥️

I'm sorry.

That I let my insecurity get the best of me.

I wish that maybe things would've been different.

Maybe we'd still talk.

Maybe I'd still know you.

Im sure you don't remember me.

It's been over four years.

I still love you, I think.

What hurts the most is not getting so close.

But, instead, it hurts the most when you miss their smile. And they’re already gone. And you can’t stop thinking you’ll never see it again.

To anybody who’s willing to listen

You matter You’re loved You’re needed

I know my words are pointless And that I can’t change your mind Or change your life

But we need you here And I’m sorry if the world has convinced you otherwise I’m sorry if you feel weighed down by the heavy weights of the world

But please stay Stay with us Keep going

Keep going because you deserve to see your life change for the better Keep going because you’re worthy of feeling the love that you haven’t felt yet Keep going because I guarantee you it won’t be like this forever

Keep going No matter what your mind is telling you We need you here

Keep going No matter what your family is telling you We need you here

Stay with us Because you deserve it You deserve to stay

With all my love I need you here We love you 💙

Dear G.D.,

You have a craft for creating a beautiful scene unlike anyone I've ever known. You've been teaching me for about two years now, and I never have been sad or upset walking into your class. It's fun and silly, but also serious and real. Thank you for all the things I've learned, I hope I can fulfill your wish one day.

Makyla

Dear A.F.,

You are too kind. And funny. Your not afraid to be yourself, but also responsible. Your compliment made me gleam for days. Section leader? That's a big ask, but you did it too. I will miss you so dearly, with only a year left of your fun. 

Makyla

Dear S.B.,

You were the friend when I felt like I had none. You reached out in kindness when you didn't have to. You are a hard worker, and get things done. Your have a good heart, and I'm hoping I will lead you towards God and Jesus in everything I do.

Love

Dear V.S.,

Your writings are truly an inspiration. I never know what's coming next and your descriptive details are things I would have never thought of. You have a good personality, and have been through some stuff. I will always look up to you.

Makyla

Dear T.B.,

I'm not as shy as I was because of you. I have found a forever friend, even though we haven't seen eachother in person since 2022. You are my Bestie 1, my grrr, and my pinky finger. We have so many amazing memories that will stick with me for a long time. Remember all the dirt I have against you? Yeah. I still have it in my camera roll, so watch out.

Makyla

Dear Mama,

I’ve always wanted to call someone “mama” and have it be true. “Mom” puts so much distance between a mother and daughter. You don’t know me, and I’ve only dreamt about you since I was four. Only. If I could find you, I think it would make a world of a difference.

I don’t think about you as much as I did, and I don’t know if you can miss what you’ve never had. In my case, someone I’ve never met.

I wonder if I have your eyes. My eyes look bigger because I have “the flap”. Do you have the flap? Are you happy and loud like I was as a kid? Or more quite and reserved, like I am now?

There’s so much I don’t know, so much I could learn about myself too. I just need one conversation. Closure. Do you play any instruments? Coffee or tea or matcha? Dogs or cats? Are you a short freak like me? Is your hair so thick it could be a certified gym rope?

Why didn’t you give me a chance? Why did you toss me to the side?

I need to know…

I need to know.

Mama, are you even alive?

August 3rd 2024 From me to you

3 years ago today we lost you

3 years ago today you took your last breath

3 years ago today We said goodbye to you For the very last time

And even though it’s filled with sorrow Today is your day

So here’s my letter to you I love you I miss you

I miss the road-trips I miss camping I miss the family game nights I miss you

I’ve lived everyday with your memory burned into my mind With our last moments playing in my head like a movie on repeat Every Single Day

I’ve also lived every minute trying to remember the love that you brought to this world The love that you brought to this family But sadly the sad memories always seem to outweigh the good

And every year as the days of July bleed into august I can’t help but think of those terrible days that we lost hope Those moments that flash in my mind every time I think of you

And I wonder how many people are thinking of you too How many people have this date etched in their memory

I wish so badly that I could see you Hear you once again But sadly I know that wish will never come true

Life has changed a lot I’ve changed a lot 3 years later and I still can’t accept that you won’t see me grow up 3 years later and I still miss you 3 years I can’t believe I’ve gone 3 years without you

I love you more than anything I can only hope that you know how much you were loved How important you were

With all my love I’ll keep remembering you I’ll keep thinking of you

I’ll love you for eternity And I’ll miss you for more

• • • Okay, I know this is long and kind of all over the place but honestly I don’t really care 😅. I just wanted to make sure this was posted today because this day is special to me no matter the pain I feel from it. And i could’ve made it more poetic but this is just what I’ve got and I’m ok with that. Thank you for reading and listening. I appreciate it more than you know. You are loved 💙