i never saw those smiles in the hall that you supposedly gave me with your friends maybe i was the one who stopped talking but you stopped loving me last year when you made me feel like i wasn’t worthy to be in your little group “i just wanted to protect you” bullshit i thought you hated me what’s wrong with me why do all of my friends decide i’m not good enough? i started to question if it was true you can’t make up for all that hurt with a few poems if you wanted to talk we would, i told you it was up to you this time if you wanted to talk you don’t have to wait till we’re finally on the bus together if you wanted to you could we i miss you i forgive you but i need to hear you first i don’t want to feel like this is one sided anymore if you so badly say it isn’t

Please, leave alone my broken soul, Let my fractured spirit wander, For my rest is in my sorrow.

I cannot dream to be complete, Or feel my heart grow full, With her absence in tomorrow.

My lifeblood freezes in my veins, My lungs will not inflate, This is time I only borrow.

To know she’s gone and shall remain, It fills my chest with dread, After her, I long to follow.

There is no joy or peace in this, A life lived from her apart, Leaves my own world feeling hollow.

Let love greet love in a far off place, Allow me to take solace in this rejoining, If I should fall asleep in death’s embrace, Then I shall find her in the light of the morning

Broken is all I’ll ever be.

These scars and cuts define me.

Sometimes it’s on accident but sometimes it’s on purpose…

These cut marks will always define me and will never leave me.

Sometimes it’s the only thing I can control.

Everyone hurts me and feels no remorse.

Please if your out there just leave my broken soul alone…

In this borrowed skin, where dreams are thin and frail, A stranger's gaze from my reflection's face, I walk the line, for fear that I will fail.

Your hands, they build me up, Just to break me down, I cannot prevail in love’s relentless chase, I am but a mannequin, Gagged and bound.

Each step I take, feels like a foreign trail, A masquerade where truth cannot embrace, You dig my grave, seal it shut with nails.

Your words, like threads, weave through an unseen veil, A Crosstitch of shoulds I can't erase, I walk a tight rope, yet still, I fail.

All is empty in this living hell, The ghost of me, confined without a space, Will I ever find the keys to unlock this cell?

So hold me in your hands like Clay, Since, to you, I am but a mold. Just go easy, so I don’t fray, And please, leave alone my broken soul.

Please, leave alone my broken soul You can’t mend my wounds You can’t fix my woe.

My hearts tainted black And I’m broken to the bone Please leave alone, my broken soul.

Most days I’m cruel , I can’t speak kind words I’ll always be a foe You can’t fix my woe.

My cracks root deep, into my core My light has leaked Please, leave alone my broken soul.

Some days I wish, I were like you But I’m alone You can’t fix my woe.

Go, and save yourself from my bitter heart I’m too far gone, you must depart. Please, leave alone my broken soul You can’t fix my woe.

Please, leave alone my broken soul Let it succumb to the damage it’s done It doesn’t deserve the life it’s in It doesn’t deserve to see the sun

Let it shrivel up and fall apart Let it writher in pain Don’t you dare touch it Or it’ll make you go down the wrong lane

My soul has been broken down bit by bit By emotional trauma and more It will never ever heal fully It makes my life a chore

Leave me alone to lie in the pain Watch my soul fade away And with it, my life Will go along within the day

Please, leave alone my broken soul Permit my heart to bleed For my surrender yields control

Your ways elude my frail control But still you plant a seed Please, leave alone my broken soul

You sow rich promise in my soul A puerile hope sprouts like a weed For my surrender yields control

Such scarcity’s in my control My dreams you tether to your greed Please, leave alone my broken soul

And what am I without my soul? A vessel from its purpose freed? For my surrender yields control

Though I’m convinced you’d make me whole Through burning tears I scrape and plead Please, leave alone my broken soul For my surrender yields control

Started out in life at an early age Met this beautiful young lady Decided we would marry Biggest mistake I ever made

At first it was all good very normal Months past and things begun to change Very demanding hollering arguing Very possessive the evil starts coming out

Go to hang out with my friends The evil young lady crashes the party I try to calm her and take her home She claws and scratches all the way

Once at home all is good she seems to be ok Sit around and talk take it to the bed Morning come and once again My evil little lady becomes a jealous monster

Hollers, cusses, scratches a feisty little lady Strikes out of nowhere evil but pretty I’m trying to calm her down again I’m leaving I’m out on my own

                            Written By:
                             Freddie Lopez 
                             03-13-2020

Please, leave alone my broken soul, Tarnished by years of doubt And hate as black as coal.

Please, come hold me in your heart. In this warm, sturdy embrace You can mend my broken parts.

Please, forgive me for my sins. The past is gone away But its words still stain my skin.

Please, walk into my mind. The door has been unlocked. It’s dark and cold, but kind.

Please, fly away with me, All the way into the stars. Are you my destiny?

I hope I do not ask too much, But you really need to know. My feelings for you are as such: Pure as winter snow.

Please, leave alone my broken soul. Loving you is hard. I give you my heart. And you rip it apart.

Please, leave alone my broken soul. Sick of the lies. All of my silent cries. Damn these soul ties.

Please, leave alone my broken soul. Time is sparse. Your heart is bitter and tart. I thought it was till’ death do us part.

Please, leave alone my broken soul. I must go now. I refuse to be a clown. On to a new town. You ask me why and how. Don’t pretend to care now.