I kill I steal I give it to the poor Is that good I don’t know People tell me I’m in the wrong But what can I say “They are stealing from the poor, I’m giving back”

I can’t say my true thoughts so I keep My head held down People don’t relize That I’m trying to keep our world From turning into a dystopian book But they laugh saying I’m doing wrong

That I can’t steal Can’t kill Can’t give anything I earn to the poor Maybe their right Cause maybe I will get punished I don’t know my purpose anymore I guess Was my life really worth it

halloween night so creepy, so dark the sound of a slicing knife could intensify the beat of your heart

what if your heart stopped beating and you didn’t know it yet? what if the wound was open a month before it ever bled?

halloween night you avoided the girl you put up a fight

she gave you a drink and a smirk or two and in two blinks she was all over you

halloween night so scary, so fun the sound of a slicing knife heads your way, but you can’t run

was it worth it?

Dear Mira,

Was it worth it? I hope it helped to tear me down. I hope that was good for you.

Was it worth making me look stupid to make yourself feel better?

Was it worth it when you walked in on me sobbing on the phone to my dad?

It wasn’t that bad, right? You’re good to me…until you’re not.

Hey, it’s okay. I get it, you’re insecure because while I spend hours on end in the library, you’re watching videos in a dark room.

Mira, I’d like to make it very clear that I’m not implying that I am better than you. I’m explaining how all your efforts to make yourself feel better mean nothing as long as you take no action.

Keep pushing.

I believe in you.

Respectfully, Mark

Trigger Warning: ED?

I starved myself for a year.

I picked through school lunches so it seemed like I ate.

I got used to the growling of my stomach as if it were white noise.

My mom jokingly called me anorexic and praised me for being thinner in the same breath so sometimes I wonder:

Would they have realized I was sick if I were already thin to begin with?

I never liked water, so I can't say that's what I lived off of for that year.

No; I dehydrated as well, to the point eating made me nauseous and maybe that's why I never made an effort to get better.

I still forget to drink water often enough that I'll feel nauseous again and it's tempting to let myself starve once more.

Maybe I'll go down a few more clothing sizes.

My friend makes a comment about feeling fat when she weighs less than me and I ask myself if I'm willing to starve again.

Was it worth it?

Unaware, and unassuming. While my soul he was quickly dooming. He sauntered in and took a bite. Inhaling my critically acclaimed rotted life. He chewed me up, but didn't spit me out. Keeping me trapped inside his broken mouth...

“Was it worth it?”

-HMG

We’re friends I think I hope I dream

You said to me I could tell you anything There was never a wrong time

But did you mean these words Or are they simply a joke To be honest I like you But just as a friend

And yet the idea that you might not want me Hurts like I love you as more I don’t, I can’t, I won’t You and me D and M Aren’t something that should exist

I write stories Using my initial and yours I created a book But not with our story

I used a D and I used an M Because I wanted it to be us I begged myself to change the names To let this story go To let other names be the right ones

But I couldn’t I wanted it to be us so bad That I couldn’t change anything

So I kept the names And in doing that I think I was trying to tell myself that I want you Not like I want you I just want a friend But no one else caught my attention Besides you

So can you tell me If me doing this Wanting us Wanting you Writing D and M And trying Was worth it?

“Hey civilian is it worth it? The pain and all the hell you go through?

Is it worth rucking miles carting a heavy backpack?

Is it worth it almost dying in a gas room?

Is it worth the amount of reps you have to do?

Is it worth it to pick up a gun and fight as soldiers do?

Is it worth it to go above the average soldier To jump out of planes

To travel through a forest with a map and a compass

Is it worth it going through hell week

Is it worth the cuts and bruises from the repel tower to the barbed wires

Is it worth humiliation of being with other people in the shower room

Is it worth the criticism both good and bad

Tell me civilian are you willing to go through hell?”

I am

“Tell me civilian is was worth it?”

Was it worth it? Making me feel like sh*t?

Do you even know? You probably don't care though

You'll play it off Like my feelings are a bothersome cough

If I make you aware You'll never care

I'm ignored Then "adored"

We're alright Then she comes into sight

And it's like you don't know me I'm erased from your memory

You treat her like she's Britney Spears And I'm not here

I think she hates me And I'll let her be

I didn't ever do anything to hurt you guys And we are good friends when your away from her eyes

Pick her over me, I don't care Because me and her clearly can't share

I can make other friends With people who won't tie ends

I won't be friends with more brats I'll make friends with people better than that

You make me feel sad and hurt all the time And I let it slide

I still try to make things mend But now I want to make our "friend"

So if it all ends and that's it I wanna know, was it worth it?

My heart is like a ping pong ball Should I run or should I fall?

Running might be for the best But falling gets weight off my chest

I’ve liked you on and off for years But you’ve caused me dozens of tears

So just let me know by the end of the day If I should go for it or stay away

I guess I’ll fall—unless it ends in shit So please, tell me… was it worth it?

Hi I’m sorry if I Got the wrong Impression I don’t know What to think Right now

Hi I can’t tell What we are If we’re just Friends Or something More

Hi Will this Upset you If I ask if we’re Together Or I we’re simply Something

Hi Or would you rather Me say Bye Which would you Prefer I don’t know

Hi Tell me please Was this Worth it to you Was I Worth it To you