(tw: self harm)

My favorite artwork is the one on my legs

My thighs

One I never get bored of

I keep adding more to it

When one stroke disappears I add another

And another

And another

It’ll be the easiest to hide in the summer.

I don’t have to wear hoodies that my mom asks me

Aren’t you too hot in that?

Whenever I make a mistake

I revisit this tapestry

And add to it

It’s comforting

In a way.

When...

You know that feeling

When you feel yourself peeling

Peeling away from reality

Feeling yourself fly away, high and far

Let me feel that peace

That overtaking peace

Where one can speak

Without feeling drowned deep

Society’s hold on me is pressuring

Pressing my skin, leaving bruises and scars

What can I do to make this go away?

What can I do to destroy this pain?

People say that we’re all okay

...

Have you ever seen a skull smoke a cigarette?

Don’t tell him it’s wrong, he hasn’t got any lungs!

The tar falls through him in charred up lumps

Doesn’t matter how much he takes,

Don’t matter if he’s shunned

Man, I wish I was the one

To paint a skull smoking a cigarette

Not a care in the world

Probably cus he doesn’t live in it

His spirit’s in paradise

His body’s decaying

Throw in a couple cigar...

Close enough to touch,

They swung and flew,

She danced,

He drew,

But the space only grew,

Until universes stood between them.

Unable to see or hear,

Much less fly,

The entwining of their lives

the consequence of one spider.

A web far out of their control...

I want permance

Your touch etched into my skin

I want love and meaning

Your words engraved in my memory

I want someone to stay

Your presence carved into soul

But I’ll settle for ink

———

(Do you have any tattoos? If you don’t but you want them in the future, what would you get? I don’t have any but would get the second star to the right from Peter Pan. Or a key since I really like keys. 🗝️)...

(TW: drugs, abuse, family issues)

The bat swings

Knocking down several vases

Rage fueled by dope

Screams echoing throughout the house

Bouncing off the walls covered in

Photos filled with artificial joy

Cries of pain and sorrow

Hoping for something better

For someone who will mourn when you die

But that’s hard to conceive

When you are constantly reminded

How much a pile of shit you are

M...

TW: drugs

(Edited)

Crash

The bat swings

Knocking down several vases

Rage fueled by dope

Screams

Echoing throughout the house

Bouncing off the walls

Covered in photos filled with

Artificial happiness

Cries of pain and sorrow

Hoping for something better

To feel loved

But that seems impossible

Moans

Saturated in betrayal

Mother doesn’t know even if she did

She wouldn’t care

She’s busy ...

I run my hands through my hair, knotted and damp from the misty spray that leapt and danced joyfully off of the morning waves crashing into the still cold sand. I love looking at the ocean when the sunlight rippled and jumped from crest to valley, but most especially under an inky night sky. I love to watch it meld together under a darkening sky, joining seamlessly, two that becomes one. I breathe...

-a combination of two songs I like-

If you could see that I'm the one

Who understands you

Been here all along

So, why can't you see?

You belong with me

You belong with me…

But I watch your eyes as she walks by,

What a sight for sore eyes,

Brighter than the blue sky,

She’s got you mesmerized while I die…

(You belong with me (Taylor swift), Heather (Conan gray)))...

Big, tearful eyes,

I still remember the day you died.

In my arms, where you cried,

I could've sworn we had more time.

All those hours spent with you,

All the places I went with you.

Do you know what you put me through?

In your room, in your bed,

Do you remember what I said?

That day replays in my head,

"I love you too."

If only you knew,

A part of me died with you....