Reality What is Reality? When I look around me I don’t see real I don’t feel real It’s like watching a movie in 4k Everything feels so perfect but it’s not there I’m not here Or am I? Some moments I feels as though surely I am alive Most days I don’t believe anyone is Most days I wonder what living is Chasing after something you can never catch? Dying for something you will never see? What is reality? I know I’ll never know It gives me peace sometimes To know I do not know

Of all the gifts society has taken from the Greeks, None convey relief and comfort like that honest shriek, To be in doubt, or consternation, rifling in the plot, When then, at last, an issue saved by solution you forgot, The mind is burdened by its thoughts in our most trying times, But feels the weight lift like loosed stone when thinking realigns, And so it stands to reason when one almost starts to quit, That should they spy that crucial piece cry: “Eureka: I’ve found it”

Teach me serenity Not to treat life like a series of earthquakes Teach me to make others laugh Instead of always calling out their mistakes Teach me to cheer people on Not disclaim their successes Teach me to be a winner To rechannel the anger that depresses Teach me to pick myself up after I fall Not wallow when I don’t get it right the first time Teach me to smile in spite of it all Not to spite others when the blame is all mine

I want what you have But rather than taking it from you I want to share it and spread it around Like a good disease Like laughter during a rainfall Because laughter is contagious And there’s enough of it to empower us all

In the fog, I wander, dazed and blind,
A maze of thoughts tangling in my mind,
Each step a guess, each turn a prayer,
In a world that’s spinning, I’m lost somewhere.

Questions rise like smoke in the air,
Swirling around, pulling me everywhere.
Answers hide like shadows in the night,
Flickering out just before I find the light.

The days stretch long, the nights are cold,
And doubt’s harsh whisper feels so bold.
Truths dissolve in a sea of gray,
While I search for signs to show the way.

But then a breeze brushes my cheek,
A hint of warmth, a voice so meek.
The haze begins to slowly clear,
And suddenly, I start to hear—

The quiet sound of my own heart's beat,
Guiding me with each steady repeat.
The noise fades out, the air turns bright,
And all at once, I find the light.

No longer lost, no longer weak,
The fog lifts high, the path grows sleek.
Confusion melts like morning dew,
And I step forward, strong and true.

With open eyes and calm mind,
I leave the dark, the doubts behind,
And in the clarity, I see my way,
The dawn of a bright, new day.

I am watching myself sleep I am feeling the sheets shift As I fall in my dreams As I slip in the street In front of a crowd That laughs in surround Like music in a lift

Descending

Never ending but maybe not If I stop all my misbehaving And keep a list of myself And my parts as well I could be lighter And get caught in the wind Or the backdraft Of a shutting door Followed by a voice ‘Say no more’

And I won’t If it means I get to live Without second thoughts Or third feelings Like random chest pains Or falling short.

I am watching myself wrestle I am hearing my lungs give out As I hold my own breath As I comfort myself In front of friends and family That shake their heads Like sodden dogs.

One day I will be me And I won’t think about this And I’ll walk painless miles In shoes that fit me.

I’ve got an ai generated face There’s so many errors I can place My brain is rusting, gears barely move I can’t tap into humanity’s groove I got oil in my body, spilling out my throat I got pain in my soul, so I’m building a moat Black oil sea, gates painted hateful red, I’m set in the crumbling castle inside my head The castle walls are covered in decaying flesh Bodies still moving, how they thresh Skeletal hands reaching out And I sit on my throne of crippling doubt Am I human, am I monster, am I machine? Am I even fit enough to declare myself queen?

But if I do not take on this role This sad little thing will crawl in a hole So I am the ruler of this frame Of this apparition full of shame
Of this crumbling being, rusty machine Of this, monsterous creature, forlorn queen

I’ve been lied to all my life I feel numb to it now My icy glass skin Easily shattered to the ground My words pouring out Into a void no one can hear Over all the noise I shed tears piercing my eyes Yet I’m still intact I wish I could go back I’ve been uncertain for so long I was wrong about this Who am I? Did I ever even know who I was….

Maybe existence is never meant to be fun.

I’m confused, And I’m mad,

I feel like I’m being lied to, But I have no proof.

The line between truth, And make believe,

Is thinning, Becoming blurry.

Absense of light No end in sight This grip you think you have on me

Tightness of breath Thinking that it’s death If this is true just let it be

Hallway of corruption Or what is seems to be This prison that resemble free

Transcend from above Cuz you’re deprived of That trail of fear that follows thee

One day, One day, You’ll see the last of me

Relentless sense of passion Just waiting to strike That moment where he’s gunna bite

You think you’re safe from misdeed Offend against him Your arrogants is growing slim

Blocking every exit With nothing but goodwill Empowering sense of overkill

Every waking hour Chipping at my brain How dare you step in my domain

Through raging of war We can both agree

That One day, One day, You’ll see the last of me

Beautiful teacher, wonderful instructor I pray you return to work seamlessly Composed like a seasoned conductor Directing melodic phonics effortlessly

Embarking on this journey's final phase Your story's next chapter has been approved As you finally hand in your notice, praise Then notice the weight being removed

From your tired shoulders and admire The strength that remains within them From carrying the responsibility to inspire Young minds to learn and shine like a gem

Allow this very moment to be bittersweet Recalling the magnitude of your impact Over the many years, yes there's been defeat From your victories they could never detract

The feeling of empowering those tiny souls Comes second only to what your future holds your potential is limitless, conquer your goals Trust that God is in charge as tomorrow unfolds

As we raise our two beautiful baby boys Growing and maturing ourselves in the process Lets silence the doubt in our minds with poise Thanking the lord in advance for your success

Your destiny is as bright as the potential You've nurtured, from Manford to Newbury Park, Cambodia to Kenya, you have been exceptional In every single classroom, you've left your mark

And the places you'll go have even God excited In you, all that you are, he is always delighted It's at this precise moment you need to remember The best is yet to come, the glory of his splendour