Once stuffing food into my mouth

not caring about carbs

or calories

people around me

who liked to eat too

different spices

flavors

bursting on my tongue

until eighth grade

it was like

when everyone stopped wearing

our white uniform polo

i did too

i never cared about which was which

until everyone else did

lunchtime was my favorite time of day

where i got to laugh with my friends

and eat a full ...

Menedez twins were they

Blown their parents clean away

Spent their money

Living it up

Till they were caught

Menedez brothers

Shook them up

When they got locked up

Jail, doors shut tightly

In case the monsters come

Door shut tightly,

might the monsters come!...

Door shuts tightly , might the monster come .

Dwelling In the silence ready to succumb .

My heart wants to leave so it can grieve .

Don’t you hear the hum as it follows .

one two three it’s coming for me ....

I can never seem to sleep.

When I'm alone, there's nothing to silence the hurricane of thoughts in my head.

**You'll never be enough.**

_Why am I not enough?_

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**Nobody loves you.**__

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_Why does nobody love me?_

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I'm sitting up til sunrise, letting the circles under my eyes darken.

The monster isn't under my bed, but it rests upon it.

It doesn't think it's enough.

It doesn't thin...

Overthinking is my specialty

At night

When the world falls asleep

I sit and think

About everything that went wrong

About the things I said

Or didn’t say

Or the things I did

Or didn’t do

The problems that have no solution

And the differences things would make

If I could just build up enough confidence

To talk to her

I know I can’t do anything about it now

It’s too late

There’s no going bac...

You keep the quilt pressed close to a sweating forehead,

The golden light on to scare the dark

Yet you jump at the sound of the mechanical lark.

Your wild eyes are forced open

In a terrified trance you cannot deny

You pray that no wolf will jump for sheep over a fence so high.

The lark screeches like an owl in the night

Twelve chimes it shrieks

And your heart leaps twelve times.

The creak and ...

right on the edge of my head

that i am stuck inside

a cloudy haze of swirling red

emotions taking flight

i cannot open myself up

i cannot let them in

it’s better to stay tightly shut

or else they’ll surely win

they’re monsters, nothing else

because they never go away

i’m convinced they came from hell

because they want to stay

with me, inside my brain

where it’s dark and freezing cold

they t...

Door shuts behind me

Might the monsters

Crawl out

Under the bed

With screaming

Words

Instead my head

And under my bed

They stand in front of me

Sharping their nails

Like knifes

Pointing at me

Till

“Baby I’m here”

She says

I she hopes the door

The monsters disappear

As she crawls into bed

And kisses my forehead

“Good night”...

Chasing the dragon, an agonizing fight,

Living in sin, a world without light.

I walked through the world, a ghost among men,

Convinced that I’d never taste freedom again.

Life felt like echoes in an empty hall,

A puzzle missing pieces, a 10 story fall.

Colors around me, muted and dark,

Until I met the girl with the gypsy heart.

Blind to the world, yet still, she could see,

Beyond all my flaws...

I’m drenched in sweat and darkness as I lie in bed alone,

I know they’re watching me, I can fill it in my bones.

I hide beneath the blanket, as if it is my shield,

Waiting for my bitter fate to finally be revealed.

I knew it couldn’t last, it was too good to be true,

I should have listened when he told me, “I’m gonna get you. “

I should have known they’d come, it was only a matter of time,

W...