It wasn’t yours to take, but nevertheless you ripped it from my grasp. This is what you wanted right? A swift kick in the ass? You’re keeping my sanity as a keepsake. How cute. Just know that my shame went along with it too. So, don’t be surprised at what I choose to do…

SURPRISE MUTHAF***A That’s right I see you :)

You thought you got away but I’m in your rear view running full speed before I hop on your roof. I’m busting your windows keep driving if you want to. Just know your windshield’s next and then I’m coming through to grab your steering wheel I’m gon crash out for you.

You tucked and rolled out the car. Why you so scared now? You didn’t have that fear when you ripped my heart out. So I hop out the car too rolling behind you with a smile. You’re not getting far I’m a woman on the prowl.

You hit a dead end. Brick wall against your back I just don’t understand how you could leave me like that! After all we’ve been through? Now you have tears. Well I’m crying too because all I wanted to do is just say “I Love You.”

It wasn’t yours to take but nevertheless you ripped it from my grasp I tried not to cry as it fell from my hands ‘You disgust me’ That was the final straw I break down into fits of laughter and tears I disgust YOU __ My words echo through the room I have tried SO hard to be perfect!! And you still treat as if I am nothing!!!! __ My blade falls from their hand with a loud crash I wake up sweaty, eyes full of tears

I know I’m making memories, But they flash bye so fast. I can’t keep up with This world anymore. I’m falling down and being passed by, everyone else speeding up. Why can’t I just keep up. I really can’t do anything With the feeling of pain and suffering in my mind and in my chest. Almost everything I touch will be ruined and turned into dust. I’ll cry on the race track of my life And sit on the pavement curled into a ball. Cause even after all this time And all this relentless trying. I’m pretty sure The world finally won after all.

It wasn't yours to take, but nevertheless you ripped it from my grasp ran off like nothing happened as if my trust was meant for you

Just clarifying

If I have an opinion I’m picky But if I don’t I’m lame If I share my opinion I’m a brat But if I don’t I’m fake

That sound right? Lizzie Tabby Sibley Cami Maddie

Is that right MADDIE?

It wasn’t yours to take, But nevertheless, You ripped it from my grasp.

It wasn’t your choice to make, But like always, I’ll have the last laugh.

I’m the little girl lost, But I’ll pay the cost. It’s not your battle to win or lose.

But you love trying, Always prying, Leave it up to me to choose.

I’ve wasted time, Waiting in line, But it’s all over now.

When it said and done, I’ll be the one, To stand and take a bow.

You, my dear, The puppeteer, I’ve cut the strings, when will you learn?

Sweet baby, Don’t you think maybe, It’s time I took my turn?

I’ll soak everything, In gasoline, And watch you crash and burn.

(Not the prompt)

I’m not sorry I met you. I don’t regret being with you. I’m not ashamed that I loved you. Because I did. Please don’t think otherwise. I did love you, It wasn’t fake. You were my world, My light, My color. You were everything to me, And I’m not sorry.

Just as I’m not sorry I ended it. We were failing, We were breaking apart. You were hurting, I was hurting. I was hurting you. We were fracturing into a million pieces, And I’m hoping now it’ll only be two. Of course, The damage is done. I hurt you, And for that I’m sorry.

I should have been so much more. I should have been nicer, I should have been more patient. I should have been better. I should have helped you Instead of hurt you. I should have been stronger.

I know I have no right to ask anything of you, But please, Believe this. I never hated you. I never saw you as a monster. I didn’t blame you. I don’t blame you. I really did love you. I did care. I still do. That’s why I have to let you go. I’m hurting you more and more, And I just can’t do that to you.

And I’m not trying to seem like a victim. Because I’m not. I have so, SO much blame in this. You have every right to hate me. Anyone does. I should have done so much better. In the end, I just wasn’t enough.

I wasn’t enough for you.

I wasn’t enough for us.

it wasn’t yours to take, but nevertheless you ripped it from my grasp

i’m left alone with never ending never merciful moral crises

i am so so lost. you couldn’t reach me physically but my lord, my personal hell, did you squeeze your way into my pretty little brain.

so little.

you probably don’t even think about me. i was probably just a joke in your young adult mind. but i i have not forgotten your face the exact words you sent are permanent in my lost little head and the clothes i was wearing haven’t been touched since.

you are cruel. it wasn’t yours to take.

I saved it for another, Not knowing if he would even bother. But instead you ripped it from my hands, And beat it as much as you can. Now my heart is in pieces but that’s fine, He never wanted it anyway.

I hated this but I need it gone.

How someone I held dear to me ruined our relationship.

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You held me up and put me on a pedestal, Thinking this was love. You thought me somehow celestial.

You put me above your needs, Why the fuck would you call this love. Whatever I did was on something you would feed.

You saw me fall, you were responsible for this twist in the arrow. I tried to be free but that wasn’t my call.

You destroyed all the good by disrespecting our foundation, you hurt yourself when I bled. Why would you have this notion.

You never saw us as equals. We never believed at the same pace, And you had the gall to try and rebuild me after the 15 years of loathing I had before.

Who the fuck is going to rebuild me… But fucking me… “Patience”, you said.

In the end we both hurt because I couldn’t give the love you projected on me. “Because I wasn’t ready” I said

You didn’t hear this, And we both sunk And this my dear is Carthasis.

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This may trigger some people, idolising someone thinking this will repair and replace 15 years worth of guilt and loathing aint going to work is it and acting like a child the second I fall apart.