Writing Prompt

You never asked, but I hate you And I love you at the same time

Does the world revolves around you, Or does it revolve around others as well?

You never asked, but hate your smirkiest grin And yet I love you for it

Do you know that instead of helping people, You hurt them?

You never asked, but I hate it when your right And I love it when your wrong

Do you ever think about the nicknames others are entitled too, Because of you?

You never asked, but I hate it when you shut me out of your world And I love it when you let me in

Does everything make sense to you now, Because you need me?

You never asked, but I hate you And love you at the same time

Btw, this was inspired by the book “P.S. I love you” which is a great book to read!

You never asked, But… Thank you for all you’ve done

You know everything About me

My sins, My failures, My thoughts, My weaknesses

Yet you never Gave up on me

Even when I Complain and cry

You love me, even when I couldn’t love myself

All you ask is for Praise and worship

And for us to make Disciples out of people

And even though, Jesus, You have never asked, Thank you for everything

Here we are, Bleeding from these scars. Asking where there were, Wounded like a cur.

Here you are, Head full of stars. Plundering my sadness, Just so I could feel less.

Here I am, Soul worth a damn. Wondering my thoughts, In your net caught.

Here we were, Overseeing our spiral. Not causing mal, But this is what we were.

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Love You R

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You never asked, but I love you My blood boils My shin crawls My body shakes My love is too strong It’s an obsession

You never asked, but I hate you My fist clenched My body recoils I hit you in your pretty little face It’s a fantasy

You never asked, but I’m broken I hate the way you make me feel Like a monster Like a creature Like a cannibal It’s true

You never asked, but I can’t do this anymore I hold up the knife I’m too weak to do it I’m too tired to try Depression grasps my soul It’s devastating

You never asked Anything Because you never Cared

You never asked, but, I love the way the sun Dances golden light upon your skin, Glittering it a pale gold.

I love the way you smile When we twirl like the wind, Our hands interlaced, Quite like leaves and a breeze.

I love the way you speak, How your voice is soft— Your lips like sweet honey, Spurring delicious words.

I love how you understand. Through tough times, You always help us win triumph— Love always wins.

I love you for who you are.

You never asked but, Please don’t ever change.

There is a reason why I eat peanut m&ms even though I don’t like peanuts There’s a reason why I take the chocolate milkshake over vanilla at certain restaurants

And why I walk in some rooms to just stop and think Or go through different departments in the store that I have no interest in

There is a reason And the reason is him All of these things remind me of him And some days I just need to go back in time Think of the things he would do And do them myself because he no longer can

These tiny Unimportant things makes me feel closer to him And when you lose someone You’ll do anything you can to bring them back Even for just a second

To remind yourself that they were real And that they were once here

You never asked but I really did care about you. It was only you.

You never asked but I couldn’t help but love you. You were my only.

You never asked but I’d have been yours forever. But you weren’t mine.

I’ve been breaking apart These past couple of weeks I’ve been falling into a rabbit hole Not knowing what it is I seek

Is it truth? Or maybe kindness? Maybe it’s just one person Who doesn’t call me worthless

Failures never stray past your eyes But my successes you’ll let stride I’ve already lost count Of how many nights I’ve uncontrollably cried

Tears do nothing Is what you say With eyes dark and solemn expression Disappointment marring your face

I’ve thought about ending it all More than a couple of times Yet I can’t help but think Would I be running away from all of my problems if I just let myself sink?

You never asked, but…

It hurts me, too.

I never wanted to hurt you But lately that seems like all I do I care so much that I cry over thunderstorms At the thought that those that I love could be gone in an instant

But I understand you’re the victim When you called me about something that happened two month ago You’ve been miserable for all that I know Why am I even here then, though?

For most of my life, I’ve been killing my mind Since I was eleven, I’ve made myself cry It took so much to be able to speak It took so much to remember to breathe

I’ve had to teach myself how to socialize How to accept myself just enough to survive How to remember to do simple tasks How to be fucking happy

And yet I still worry I still think about death sometimes I still wonder why you’d ever choose to be with me But you’re here

And you’ve been here

Why?

If all I do is make you miserable I apologize profusely and promise I’ll change Then never do— Why are you still here?

Guilt And shame Are the two feelings I hate I’ve felt them for most of my life and don’t want to feel them again.

Guilt And shame Are what I felt When you called me

You never asked, but…

It hurts me, too.

In silent glances, I've spoken to you, Not with words, but with truth ever true. You never asked, yet always knew, The shadows of my past, the light you drew.

When first we met, you changed my core, Made me whole, but I’m unsure, Of who I am without your light, In your eyes, I’ve lost my sight.