actions i once found endearing

giving substance to your meretriciousness

tearing me and others

apart at the seams

scars deeper

than ever imaginable

my naivety proving pernicious

i dont hate you

i could never

branded in your name

though not with passion

but empathy

i know you too deeply

to ever admit i was wrong

only once in a while am i angry

the anger does not burn

it’s not a rag...

**Hey you,**

It’s wild how we’ve been apart longer than we were ever together, yet I can still feel the way your hand fit in mine, riding around in your VW. I couldn’t believe my dad actually let me have a boyfriend—let alone one with a car. We had no clue what we were doing at 16, but we dove in anyway.

Slow rides with slow vibes provided by Kid Cudi, and your moms weed you prayed she wouldn’t...

We haven’t met yet, but I’m very much looking forward to the day we do. I know that my expectations may be unrealistic, but I’m only familiar with the concept of love that comes from romance novels and Rom-Coms. Truth be told, I feel I deserve the kind of love I read about. Everyone who wants love does. But I understand that you may express love in your own way and I have to be open to it.

I hav...

You never liked me. I’ve come to accept that. Is there still a small part of me that thinks otherwise? Of course. But you have her now. She’s pretty and you love her. Even though I’m definitely smarter and a better person. You love her. And that’s fine. I just thought you actually could’ve liked me. You saw right through me. You knew how felt. Maybe not a full understanding but you knew I liked yo...

when she was 6 she wanted to be a princess.

when she was 8 she wanted to be a doctor.

when she was 10 she wanted to be famous.

when she was 12 she wanted to be a singer.

when she was 14 she wanted to be skinny.

when she was 16 she wanted to be loved.

when she was 18 she wanted to be dead.

she turned 19 trying to find a meaning in her life.

wanting to make a change in her life. growing up we all ...

oooooh yall this is gonna be a…

THROWBACKK

hi!

do you remember me?

probably not, but you should.

i’m that little girl from your kindergarten class,

though i’ve grown up now.

god, i was in love with you.

or, as in love as an elementary schooler can be.

believe me when i say i thought we were gonna

get married and have a beautiful fairytale wedding.

(spoiler alert: that did NOT happen!)

in fact, w...

Dear B.,

I just wanted to tell you. God, do I know it’s unrequited. Yet do those long conversations into the night mean nothing? Our constant support for each other? The amount of Pinterest sent between us must be unfathomable for others. And our silence has held so many words which we could not speak. You were always better at saying the words, though. You are a fantastic poet, exceeding me in ma...

I don’t know how to put into words on how much you affected my life,

When I was going through a hard time it was like fate for you to be online

I know through the worlds eyes it may not be allowed but I can’t hide my emotions from you

From the moment we met online, the first time I heard your voice I felt peace and is usually I don’t do long term relationships

But I’m glad ours is, when I f...

I was never able to tell you what I wanted to tell you. Our friendship meant the world to me, and I wouldn’t ruin that, even if it meant I lived in anguish. This is to the one that I loved, for you were the one that I could never be with but always wanted to.

It started when we were young, middle school in fact. I thought I liked other people, but the thought of loving someone like you never woul...

Life hasn’t been fair since the last time i saw you

Since the first moment my eyes were laid on you

I knew that minute, that fraction of second

That my life with you will surely be “heavened”

Though i was mistaken

And by your charm taken

To the underworld of suffering

To keep the relation working

First love, oh i swear

That with your hands my heart you tear

When you say you were the proble...