Your poison drums through my veins,

Toxicity taking tolls, utterly tormentful,

strings are strung as they stretch and warp,

To fit my fighting brain.

Oh pain, oh pain,

Natures way to refrain,

Natures begging will,

Natures solemn rain.

Thoughts jumbled,

No more finished puzzles,

Pain seeps deeper than sight,

Taking over the day and night.

Every second is stolen by torture,

Doesnt take much to lure ...

TW: Anxiety/Anxiety attack (very descriptive details)

I feel hot.

I take off my sweater. My skin is so hot I can imagine heat literally radiating off of it, but hey at least I’m still warm.

My heart’s racing, & as my mind narrows down on the one thing, all my symptoms erupt at once.

I have anxiety. Moderate anxiety, so not severe enough that I’m always affected by it, but I experience anxiety ...

Poison. Poison.

Everywhere.

Your heart.

Your smile.

Your eyes.

Your voice.

I can keep counting.

Your face.

Your jokes.

Your hands.

Your touch.

Everything that spills from those beautiful lips

Brings a dirty little smile to my cheeks,

Makes my eyes shine—

Like I don’t know better.

Poison.

From the moment you started talking to me.

When our eyes meet in the hallway.

Every time you fix your hair...

I drank from the cup of which you gave,

Little did I know it would lead to the grave.

You offered your hand out and I took it like a warm embrace,

Little did I know that this was a race.

I thought I was locked within a dream but,

Little did I know you had left without a trace.

I woke up one day as I realized my sin and shame,

Little did I know that it was already too late.

My heart felt stabbe...

I am divine I no longer poison my mind

Drained my cup

Nothing to do with luck

Broke myself out of my funk

Drank my own blood

I will not consume the gas fumes

All out of self-love

Lesson learned

Bridges burned

Nothing to do with you

People left so I’ll leave them there

My burdens to bare

It’s all out of self-care

I became aware

Fill my cup full of self-love

Released the doves

Vines of ...

I claw at my throat

Fingers scratching, pleading, begging

For what do I do?

I promised, I took an oath

The pain hit my blood next,

And I couldn’t help but scream

Get this out of me!

I beg of you, please

I know i promised,

And you held up your end

Of the bargain, our deal

But I didn’t know it would cause my life to end

This is too cruel,

The pain intoxicating

I feel hit tears run down,

Freeedo...

It’s a new system, hail the first exposure

It seems so much better, I must maintain composure

Feared it may be toxic, I’m relieved for closure

I was unaware of poisons without odor

I was greeted with so many friendly smiles, I thought, “Surely my interest’s at heart”

Often told I was bright so I wouldn’t think twice when they led me to roam in the dark

Nobody else I knew questioned the system, so...

From the moment I saw you

That car is an ocean-blue

I knew the answer

But I could never ask

Breaking through holes

Lying to those fools

I forgot who I was

And why I was following you

I now realize

All those lies

Build up to a great thing

Something unbreakable

I wish you hadn't fought me

Now I can finally see

I run, I hide

But you keep catching up

You know the rules

You see all those tools

Pawn...

The snake, in all its beauty, coils around my heart,

Its venom, a powerful poison, soon to start.

Its gaze, the strongest magnet, pulls me into its den,

As I lose myself to its lethal intent.

The toxins drop like honey from its teeth

Wrapping itself around me, with no sense of relief

Its promises lure me deep into sin

Its sweet words set a fire deep within

Yet, like a drug, the snake has me ensl...

Night falls upon the hour,

Painting the manor in blue,

I walk through these hallowed halls,

Headed to my private room.

I ring the bell inside it twice,

Metallic chimes resound,

And swiftly comes my tiny maid,

With her tiny cart, head bowed down.

She says nothing as she lifts the kettle,

Pouring the tea with grace,

And once the leaves begin to settle,

She dips her head and takes her place.

I lif...